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20 March 2011 @ 09:15 pm
[fic] of all the gin joints  
of all the gin joints
community | annie; jeff/annie
late season one | pg-13 | 1000 | oneshot
Sometimes (and technically that’s already a lie) she thinks about him.




Sometimes (and technically that’s already a lie) she thinks about him.

Not too much, you understand, not enough for it to be noticeable but just enough to have to quickly look away when he looks back at her because she isn’t staring. That’s just creepy and so…high school. And she’s neither of those things; she’s a mature, responsible adult now.

(That’s another lie, but shh, don’t tell anyone).



-



It’s not like she hasn’t had crushes before (she’s a freaking teenager alright, just leave her alone), she knows the way they go.

There’s a step-by-step procedure that she has memorized, and if she were to ever forget it, then there are always those charts she made with each step highlighted and color-coded. That’s the way it went with David and Justin and that guy in her geography class who thought that Bangkok was some sort of sex position (she mostly pretends not to remember his name because she mostly pretends she has standards).

That’s the way it started with Troy. He was the Prom King and all that and she had that math notebook with the anatomically incorrect hearts stating that ‘TB loves AE’ (not the other way round, that’s important, not the other way round) and hey, maybe if she wrote it enough times, it would be true.

But because she couldn’t rely on the universe to get the hint, she also bit her lip seductively (and cut it on her braces, but that part never made it to the final version of her diary entry) and wore her sexiest clothes and crossed and uncrossed her legs in the way Sharon Stone had done in that movie that she’d watched in secret because she wasn’t old enough.

It ends with a pill addiction and some guy inside her and a realization that maybe sex was just as boring as sex-ed had always made it sound. Maybe it’s her, but he also said some other guy’s name while coming inside her, so. (Maybe it’s still her, god, is she turning straight guys gay now?)

It’s a simple two-step procedure actually— fall in love, fall out of love (nobody else ever falls).



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So, Jeff Winger.

She’s read the literature, you see (if anyone carefully analyzed the Harlequin books, they’d see there’s a whole political and social subtext that superficial readers completely miss.) and she knows how it’s supposed to go.

He’ll antagonize her and she’ll toss her head and tell the world that she wouldn’t fall for him if he were the last man on earth and he’ll just laugh because he’ll think she’s too young (every one of those girls in the books that she reads with newspaper covers are nineteen, she’s nineteen, it’s a sign from the cosmos), but then she’ll start paying attention to someone else and the jealousy will burn through him and he’ll realize that really? It’s always been her. Always. And then there’ll be the mandatory kiss in the pouring rain and the sex which might or might not be censored. She knows how it’s supposed to go.

(There’s nothing in her books about how he’ll sleep with her older, more gorgeous, more blonde friend and then kiss her and then ignore her and then…seriously, somebody needs to change the scriptwriters).



-



There’s this one (other) time when she gets completely drunk and tells the whole world that she’s in love with him. Like, literally. She’s standing on the table and the world is spinning (and maybe Shirley’s frowning a little, but her eyes can’t rest long enough on one place to be able to tell for certain).

“Elektra complex,” says Pierce, sagely, and she’s grateful when he doesn’t add anything about how he’d be the better candidate for her daddy issues (also, um, ew, Jeff is nothing like her dad, her dad’s hair is much darker).

“The sexual build-up hasn’t been enough to warrant the confession of love that’ll probably be better suited for the season finale. So obviously this is just a red-herring to keep the viewers guessing, and seems to suggest that Jeff-Annie probably isn't endgame.”

(Oh, so she can’t even get her love confessions right. Have they constituted a Nobel in the category yet?)

Jeff looks at her and half-smiles, “you’re drunk.”

That doesn’t mean she isn’t in love. But, whatever.



-



See, the thing about this whole thing is; she isn’t going to be nineteen forever.

She's going to grow-up and do something and forget all about Jeff Winger until the time when she’ll be engaged to someone else and caught in a nightmarish work schedule and they’ll meet again because, of all the gin joints, in all the world, he’ll walk into hers.

And they’ll fight, because they always fight, it's tradition. And then they’ll take shelter from the storm (the rain, the rain’s important) and he’ll kiss her against some door, hard, and fast.

And they’ll fuck (not make love, because that'll come later, when there is love to make) in some rented motel and she’ll hate herself for cheating but that’s okay because she has a vast experience with the hating herself part of it. But then he’ll fall in love, he has to, and she’ll be able to throw away her color-coded two-step charts because they’ll finally be redundant.

Someday.

(But today she’ll go to class and ignore him till he talks to her first, because although she’s been too busy with work and heartbreak throughout her life, she’s seen the movies and read the books. She knows how real life works, okay).
 
 
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jane_wanderlustjane_wanderlust on March 20th, 2011 05:04 pm (UTC)
.....GUH.
Seriously. Just wow.

I love your work. All of it.
I'm like omg waving my "biggest fan" banners over here and thinking up speeches in your honor.

This is seriously proof of why that is.

This is Annie.
Annie in all of her insecure yet unintentionally beautiful glory.
And omg.
JUST GUH.

You always right characters so well, and so true, and OMG WHY ARE YOUR STORIES NEVER CANON/SCRIPT/PLEASE LET THEM BE.
OKAY?! Okay.

We'll figure out a plan to hijack the writers' scripts and swap them for anything/everything you write.
It's what your work deserves.

Also, okay, I've got to know?
OMG MOM MOMENT.
Have you ever considered doing this professionally?
BECAUSE BABE YOU'VE GOT TALENT ENOUGH TO RUN THIS PLANET.

Just sayin...
It needs to be said.
<3

GUH.
jane_wanderlustjane_wanderlust on March 20th, 2011 05:05 pm (UTC)
WOW...write* not right!

My fangirling got in the way of my grammar.
Although....right in that context may be unintentionally pun-perfect.

Hmm...
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rabidrainbow: olivia dunhamrabidrainbow on March 20th, 2011 05:13 pm (UTC)
fjdslfsdfalsdkajfsdlkj omg this is probably one of the best characterizations of Annie I've seen.

This is just WONDERFUL! Awesome job. <3333
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 05:46 pm (UTC)
I LOVE Annie, like I love how she's this total bundle of contradictions, and that Jeff's 'you're just as selfish as I am, you're just not as good at it yet' might have been the truest thing said about her!

THANK YOU SO MUCH :D
laura34000: pterodactyllaura34000 on March 20th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
That was amazingly well-written. Loved it.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 05:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you :) I'm glad you thought so, Community makes me really afraid of attempting fic mostly!
((paper wire exit)): comm j/a structured don't hold backpaperwirexit on March 20th, 2011 07:06 pm (UTC)
This is brilliant. So true to Annie. Please keep writing J/A. Pretty please.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 05:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks a lot :) I always imagined Annie as that kid in high school who was majorly sidelined so she'd have to invent all these fairy-tale style fantasies and actually believe them!
raddishh: Ooooooh! Ashraddishh on March 20th, 2011 08:01 pm (UTC)
You are very talented.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 05:54 pm (UTC)
That's such a nice thing to say, thank you :)
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youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 05:59 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it, Annie's so much fun to (try and) explore!
dearygirldearygirl on March 20th, 2011 08:22 pm (UTC)
Wow. The way you've written Annie here is just... Wow. Gorgeous.

I really hope you continue to write more for these characters in the future. Thank you.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:02 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm really glad you think so! I haven't been in the fandom at all, so I don't know anything about the general fic characterizations and I'm just thinking it would've been so hard to attempt Abed or Troy or someone D: thank you so much!
stephen@charleneforever.com: community: annie & screammichellek on March 20th, 2011 08:44 pm (UTC)
I can't think of anything to say but: I love this.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:05 pm (UTC)
Haha, that summed it up :P Thank you so much, I really appreciate it!
fangirl_101: J/A king&queenfangirl_101 on March 20th, 2011 10:00 pm (UTC)
This is so amazingly well-written. Really loved it :)
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:09 pm (UTC)
I love your icon- Annie is such a princess! And Jeff- I'd say king, but he seem more representative of the drama queen type to me :D Thank you so much!
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wallows: annie_forestwallows on March 20th, 2011 10:41 pm (UTC)
Oh, this is compelling. And funny insightful and quite meta. I enjoyed it loads.
‘TB loves AE’ (not the other way round, that’s important, not the other way round) That is so her.
Jeff looks at her and half-smiles, “you’re drunk.”

That doesn’t mean she isn’t in love. But, whatever.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:13 pm (UTC)
'Meta' made me laugh, I bet we're all aiming at that at some level, just to get the 'show feel', and you chose my favorite line (the second one)! Thanks so much :)
Emmasmittenrosebud on March 21st, 2011 01:11 am (UTC)
Absolutely awesome!

You have Annie's voice down perfectly. I love how she has a step by step guide to having a crush - only Annie would attempt to organise the unorganisable. I love how she justifies reading trashy romance novels based on their political subtext, how she writes Troy loves Annie rather than the other way around and how she notes that the hearts she draws are unanatomically correct.

Her deep-seated belief that she knows how everything is going to turn out made me smile, both in sympathy and solidarity. Here's hoping her version of the future comes true!

she’s a mature, responsible adult now. (That’s another lie, but shh, don’t tell anyone).
I loved this thread of uncertainty that ran through the fic. I think Annie in general is quite sure of herself and what she wants in life, but I think in anyone's life there's always going to be a "these people think I'm a proper grown-up, hee I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing!" moment, and including these snippets throughout made her seem all the more realistic.

somebody needs to change the scriptwriters)
Darn tootin'! :)
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:58 pm (UTC)
OH HAI THERE. I remember you from will_rachel :D I’m glad we have another fandom in common!

I think Community might actually be the only show that I’ve been watching since so long but never felt the need to write fic for- actually I’m terrified of writing for it. The writers are so good at what they do that I don’t know whether I can actually keep all the little quirks that they’ve added. They tend not to justify anything and I love that. I love that Annie so selfish but she still has that idealism which makes her want everything to be sunshine and rainbows and unicorns and I love how Jeff doesn’t know how to react to her, because she’s sexy but in that utterly high school trying-to-impress the hot guy sort-of way and it’s adorable and heartbreaking at the same time.

And I’ve always felt that Annie would know more about life from books and movies than from, you know, actually living it, so this happened. I’m so glad you liked it :)
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Carly_carly_ on March 21st, 2011 01:58 am (UTC)
This was awesome. So many great little moments, like Annie making sure everyone knew it was TB love AE "not the other way around" and the part about changing scriptwriters. I really enjoyed reading this.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:31 pm (UTC)
Haha, that part about the scriptwriters was such an obvious attempt to be 'meta', but that IS what I love most about Community- the show isn't so much in love with any of its characters to gloss over the bad parts, and I've rarely seen that happen. Most shows feel the need to justify their protagonists' unheroic actions. Thanks so much :)
Uther Pendragon's Loyal Wench: comm - annie jeff 2firthgal on March 21st, 2011 02:24 am (UTC)
This was brilliant. So perfectly in character in every way. I think my favorite part was the drunken love confession and how no one took her seriously and she just kind of deflated. It just rang so true to the show. Oh, I loved this fic immensely.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:24 pm (UTC)
Oh, every person who writes anything loves a careful reader and I'm so glad you got that the whole point of the drunken love confession was that it mostly seems as if being nineteen makes her feelings...less intense? As if she can't know her mind because she's 'too young' so the intensity is just reduced to a semi-awkward, we'll-pretend-you-didn't-say-that sort of thing. Thank you so much! :)
wednesdayawednesdaya on March 21st, 2011 08:39 am (UTC)
That was wonderful. I loved it. I hope you write more Annie centered fics.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:15 pm (UTC)
Aww, your icon's adorable! Annie is pretty much my favorite character because I always love that girl who wants so badly to grow up but just never seems to be 'old enough'. Thanks :)
LunaMystiklunamystik on March 21st, 2011 03:22 pm (UTC)
Um, yeah... this was excellent. I'm tagging this as a memory and will be revisiting. And if you feel the need to write many, many more Jeff/Annie fics, I wholeheartedly encourage you to follow that urge.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on March 21st, 2011 06:43 pm (UTC)
I'm actually really surprised people like this, because I just went "ZOMG, WANT TO WRITE J/A" and well, wrote it without thinking, but the fandom seems to be so nice and encouraging! Also your comment made me laugh, I can see you're probably an excellent writer :D Thank you!