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21 May 2011 @ 07:01 pm
fic: a road trip for absolution  
title: a road trip for absolution
rating: pg-13
pairing: damon/elena. stefan/elena. post season finale.
summary: "Uh, no." he tells her, "big boys go out and fight. Girls stay at home and cook. Where were you when they taught Patriarchy 101 at school?". [damon's pov]

1.


"I mean, are you in this car because you want to help your little brother save the girl that he loves or is it—is it because you love her too?"

He lets go of her foot, and doesn't look at her, can't look at her. They walk on.



8.

They're going to find Stefan. He knows it. He's going to save him or die trying, and anyway he's been alive way past his expiry date, it's not like it's going to be devastating or anything. He's lived much too long enough and died far too many times for it to matter anymore.

And sometimes, when she smiles at him, like she did the first time she met him, when he wasn't anyone in particular, just this man in a house she happened to be in, he knows it. He knows it's going to end. She'll go back to Stefan, and he'll be left, the credits rolling on the story they never had. Pretending he doesn't want her with every breath he doesn't need to take. But he's going to do it anyway.

He's no savior, but he'll be the understudy, fit in the hero's shoes, play a part he doesn't know the lines for, not steal the girl, whatever.

He's no savior, but this time, he's going to be the one to save his brother.

 
 
 
love kickstarts again: VD: Damon/Elena apocalypse nowmiss_blanche on May 21st, 2011 01:40 pm (UTC)
All of this is perfection. All of it. Especially this -

They usually end up six feet apart, shouting at each other in the middle of the road and he's so angry he punches a hole through outhouse doors because she's so fucking stupid; coming along with him like he's knows what the hell he's supposed to do. He's not good with the 'cue: enter hero' bullshit; she should know that by now. But she still wants him to do more and be more and some days he wants to leave her in the middle of the road and walk away and not look back.

ADDING TO MEMORIES, GUH.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I should REALLY do the 'memories' thing for posts too, I'm so LJ-illiterate D: It's really nice of you to say that :) But also, I honestly think that Damon and Elena would frustrate each other no end, unlike Elena and Stefan who agree on a lot. They'd probably be fighting and screaming and clawing and generally showing undeniable UST, fun :D [eep, sorry for the longer/second post, I just realized I want to see them fight!]
Arabian: Damon & Elena12arabian on May 21st, 2011 02:26 pm (UTC)
Great job, if sad. :(

I loved the part about kissing feet; it was so tense and GUH! Great job. Now I want an AU spin-off of that moment into something hot and toe-curlingly steamy.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:09 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! I always seem to make D/E unrequited and angsty D: Haha, that was what I'd originally imagined but someone else would probably do the scene much better! Also, Damon and Elena were made for sexing up, it's sort of a crime to write anything below nc-17
sttatus_quosttatus_quo on May 21st, 2011 03:14 pm (UTC)
Speechless.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:10 pm (UTC)
In a good way, I hope! Thank you :D
Bogwitchbogwitch on May 21st, 2011 04:08 pm (UTC)
This was lovely.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you! <3 I'm so glad you liked it!
Gabby: damon elenagabby227 on May 21st, 2011 05:27 pm (UTC)
SUCH A GOOD FIC. I really like the idea of Damon & Elena working together to bring Stefan back.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:12 pm (UTC)
I WANT THAT IN SEASON THREE. And I want them all awkward and sexually tense and Damon back to his eye-flirting and denial stage. Thank you! :D
unoshotunoshot on May 21st, 2011 06:04 pm (UTC)
So, anyway, you are totally my favourite.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:17 pm (UTC)
And you should know that I'm creepily in love with you after that remark.
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Аэниlaiarel on May 21st, 2011 08:46 pm (UTC)
Dying all over) Loved it! Thanks for posting it)
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 21st, 2011 08:53 pm (UTC)
You're always so very nice to me, thank youu <3
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sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: TVD: Damon seeing Elena FDbadboy_fangirl on May 21st, 2011 09:17 pm (UTC)
I think people should only get one LJ talent: they can either make awesome icons, or they can write beautiful fic. It's not fair that you can do both. I'm so jealous that I didn't write this--I don't get jealous of your icons 'cause I can't do that anyway, but this? GAH.

Please write a sequel when she chooses him so my heart doesn't have to ache so much.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:45 am (UTC)
Oh shush, one LJ version of you is worth twenty of mine :P You know, Candy, it's so odd, whenever I enter a new fandom, I immediately zero on fic, but here, somehow it's been more about discussions and stuff, even though I've written quite a bit, I haven't read much! And I became friends with all these wonderful people w/o knowing that they were hotshot fic goddesses of the fandom (Exhibit A: coughyoucough). And now I'm feeling smug at having awesome friends. And I NEED TO READ FIC. I'm just waiting for RL to end so I can freely explore, so much fun!

OH GOD, now that you've mentioned it, I've been thinking of a companion fic all day. NO WILLPOWER AT ALL D:
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Florencia: DE (With You)florencia7 on May 21st, 2011 09:25 pm (UTC)
That was FANTASTIC! Your ability to evoke such intense emotions with your writing is amazing. Beautiful fic. I LOVED it! ♥
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:20 am (UTC)
I'm so glad we're friends now!! :D And that's nice of you to say because I rarely bother with plot or anything so I just hope that people can just like a whole random bunch of words put together, haha
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MissDKmissdk on May 21st, 2011 09:39 pm (UTC)
God, your writing is so perfect and I LOVE it! <3
This was so amazing. Can you please write more, more, mooooore D/E fics? We need more quality fics. *sigh*
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:23 am (UTC)
You know, I probably will because my dictionary is entirely devoid of the word 'restraint' D: and I'm just glad you like it and take out time to read! Thank you!
vie_dangerouse: it matters and you know itvie_dangerouse on May 21st, 2011 09:58 pm (UTC)
I adore this a ridiculous amount.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:24 am (UTC)
And I you for saying that.
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starsimpulsestarsimpulse on May 21st, 2011 10:44 pm (UTC)
okay, so i have been sitting with this tab open in the comment ficathon for the past few days, not quite knowing what to do with it, just kind of staring at it and hoping words will come and rereading it one million times, and i just, i have nothing for you. words are not enough. this is just epic. i particularly loved the bit about the things he never learnt about her because he was never the one. because for all that he's in love with her, he doesn't actually know her, not really, and i love that. i've always felt like he's in love with the idea of elena more than he actually loves her, not that he couldn't love her, just that he doesn't yet, because he doesn't know her. anyway, i'm rambling, i loved this. :)
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jane_wanderlustjane_wanderlust on May 22nd, 2011 01:45 am (UTC)
Okay so lately I've been losing a bit of interest in these two and idk why?
But this? This absolutely fucking amazing/beautiful piece has renewed my interest tenfold.

And um all of your words are perfect?
Seriously like idk how you do it, but your word selection is always so guttingly perfect.
OMG I JUST LOVE YOU OKAY?
I JUST DO.

And also this:
She's breaking down, bit by bit, and he pockets all the parts she lets fall unconsciously

guhhhhhhh.
A thousand times too perfect.

Hope school is going well for you bb.
I LOVE YOUR WORKKKK.
<3
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:35 am (UTC)
No, no, I completely get that! I know, because at points I completely lost interest in them too. I think it was the way the show chose to go about them, like Damon's confessions to random people just made me feel like he was so OOC, which is weird, because he's IN the show but he's still out of character. Then you lost than 'fun' factor, the "this one hour needs a beer" phrases that had made this ship. "I'm trusting you" was so much more poignant than "I love you", for instance.

But I'm kind of back to shipping them, so I'LL BE SO GLAD IF YOU DO TOO AND WRITE STUFF FOR THEM AND MAKE MY DAYS.

College is fun, I have like a FIFTEEN day gap before my next exam (stupid scheduling, they're cutting on our hols) so I'm relaxed, hopefully I'll get back in the 'study' mode soon for my econ paper!! :P
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katiebug78: VD Damon Elena Graveyardkatiebug78 on May 22nd, 2011 09:43 am (UTC)
Oh goodness this is stunning. And sad - and realistic (I have to say, my shipper heart is desperate for Damon/Elena but I kind of see it playing out like this in reality!) Perfectly written and just stunning.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 11:38 am (UTC)
I know! I doubt whether they'll be all 'Stef's off eating people and we just kissed so, LET'S GET IT ON, BROTHER.' I can see a lot of "oh god" and guilt and regret in the near (or far, stupid hiatus) future. But hopefully they'll be able to settle stuff as well, and we'll get angsty sexual tension! Thank you :D
Brainzz_Insanee: Elegant Elenabrainzz_insanee on May 22nd, 2011 10:01 pm (UTC)
oIHEhfoiehoaddskaode... SO GOOD

I love your writing...you brought out Damon's voice beautifully. He would say those things...think those things :D Your cut line is made of gold and win!!! xD Totally not fair that you can do amazing fics and icons <3

My fave part : She'll go back to Stefan, and he'll be left, the credits rolling on the story they never had. Pretending he doesn't want her with every breath he doesn't need to take
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 22nd, 2011 10:20 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you! I mostly don't write fic long enough to have a plot (and I'm really lazy that way actually, lol) so characterization is all I can go for anyway, and I'm glad it worked for you! I went crazy iconing because I just got into it, and exams make you want to waste your time more than any other time! It's fun though :D
Scarlett: delenagolden_scarlett on May 26th, 2011 06:10 am (UTC)
Freakin love this. ♥
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 26th, 2011 07:53 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for reading :D
Shaitanah: damon/elenaistne_pieklo on May 28th, 2011 01:36 pm (UTC)
Absolutely, inexpressibly BEAUTIFUL! <333
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on May 28th, 2011 02:51 pm (UTC)
Aww, that's really sweet of you to say, thanks :D
Heather-Annlinsell_farm on June 2nd, 2011 02:02 am (UTC)
Simply sublime
Wow, you are one incredibly talented writer!!

You captured so many of the awesome facets of Damon & Elena. His reluctance to fill in the hero role, her stubbornness both in coming along and mangling herself along the way, their consistency in giving the other what they need at particular moments, and their fighting with each other (which is their way of diffusing the tension between them)>> all of this feels exactly right for them.

I adored that he pockets the little pieces of herself that she's letting slip. Not to mention him savoring the little things and keeping them for later.

Slipping in the acknowledgment of the kiss on both their parts was lovely.

Thanks so much for sharing this. Now I'm off to read your other fics and definitely adding this to memories <3.
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on June 2nd, 2011 02:43 pm (UTC)
Re: Simply sublime
Aww, it's so nice of you to say such lovely things!

I honestly think that ironically enough, Damon's going to try really hard to keep his feelings for Elena low-key. It was okay to keep trying to get a shot with her till Stefan was there, but now that he's gone and there's an actual chance that something might happen, I think he's going to go back to his old uh-does-it-look-like-I-care ways.

(Alright so that's totally loaded with fantasy wish-fulfilment: I JUST WANT FIRST SEASON DAMON BACK REALLY BADLY. Also, if he hits on the girl his brother's in love with- the same brother who bargained his life away for him- then I shall be very disappointed. As much as I want Delena to happen, I think they need a lot of development before.)

AND you picked up on everything! That makes me happy :D Thanks!
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youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on June 3rd, 2011 09:38 am (UTC)
Heh, since I never have any ideas for a plot (and also because I'm just devastatingly lazy) characterization is all I can aim towards and I'm so glad that worked for you! I just want them to fight and have lots of UST in season 3 :D
serenity_kemeia on November 29th, 2011 09:36 am (UTC)
Awwww, this was way too cute. Such a nice look inside Damon's head. Write more Damon POV fics, they are amazing
youcallitwinter: broadway's got you in its hold right nowyoucallitwinter on November 29th, 2011 07:21 pm (UTC)
Haha, thank you, I really enjoy writing Damon with all his dysfunctionality!
Eliviraeliviralikespie on July 1st, 2015 05:49 pm (UTC)
Oh my God! I loved it! You captured Damon perfectly. Can I make a podfic?

Edited at 2015-07-01 05:51 pm (UTC)