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20 July 2011 @ 12:58 am
fic: nobody stays in this place anymore  



title: 
nobody stays in this place anymore
rating: hard r
pairing: damon/elena
summary: These days, she looks in the mirror and sees Katherine. [post season finale. elena's pov]
warning:  this makes use of a minor 'season 3' spoiler. Also, if your question is 'WTF IS THIS?!' your guess would be as good as mine.
a/n: ever_neutral This is your fault. You and your 'Elena is my woman' discussion. And now you have to live with knowing that all your life.
disclaimer: disclaimed. graphic source.


Damon”, she hisses, clenches her teeth, clutches the towel tighter around her like it changes anything, “you have to stop doing that.”

She looks at him and hates him a little, sprawled across her bed like he belongs there or something. And he needs to stop doing this because someday (god, no) she’s going to forget he doesn’t.

He looks up, his glance disinterestedly sliding across her body, as it moves to her face. And it annoys her at some stupid level that her brain is obviously functioning on. She’s not wildly unattractive.  And she’s wearing a towel. It’s something out of a straight-to-DVD movie, except he’s taken to wearing this bored expression like he’s trying to change the script, turn it into an Oscar winner. Whatever, it’s not like they haven’t had enough practice at pretending.

“And hello to you too, Little Miss Sunshine,” he drops her teddy back on the bed. She clenches her hand before she can hold it out for him; the bear, Damon, she doesn’t know. Doesn’t particularly want to know, “how does this fine day find you?”

“Is there a point or purpose to this or should I start guessing?” she’s snapping, but at least she’s not begging him to run away with her, stay with her, sleep with her, all those things she thinks about with monotonous regularity that she will absolutely refuse to admit to under gunpoint (knowing her life, under a pointed fang, more likely). The thing is; if she doesn’t say it, it’s almost like she doesn’t think it.

(These days, she looks in the mirror and sees Katherine.)

“You’re getting crabby in your old age,” Damon notes and fuck—he doesn’t—he can’t possibly know it’s—

“Happy birthday, Elena” he says, eyes inscrutable. It’s strange, because she used to be able to read him, all the pressure points, the danger signals, those other looks as if he was in l…ike, as if he…but now he’s looking and she doesn’t know any longer.

“Thank you,” she says, ungratefully. Mom would’ve been ashamed of her. But it isn’t like she’s here. Or dad. Or Jenna. Or any of them. If she didn’t kill them through drunken parties, she killed them by existing. Through her completely unoriginal face. But birthdays are so stupid, she’ll just get older and older and die anyway; all the ‘let’s save Elena!’, ‘let’s protect Elena!’ schemes gathering dust with the bones of all the people who died for her, because of her.

And it doesn’t even make her sad, not really, not at this moment. She’s more devastated that she’s eighteen and older than S…omeone she used to know. But that was a long time ago. It feels like a long time ago. The boy in front of her reminds her of someone else sometimes. He has such a beautiful face; it’s gut-clenchingly unfair.

He’s still looking at her, and sometimes she just wants him to never stop, “was there something you wanted here, Damon?”

He gives her an unmistakable look, his eyes flashing over her again, almost too quickly to notice. She does notice, though. Because apparently she’s that girl who notices when guys look at her that way. Who wants guys with faces like his to look at her that way. Maybe she always was that girl and it just got lost somewhere in the middle with fake curses, and mirror images, and people who loved her too much for no reason at all.

“Any plans for the day?” he asks, casually, like he’s offering her a crash course in reality. His bed, his lips, her arms didn’t change things all that much apparently.

“Nothing,” she says shortly. She should go. Back. Go back into the bathroom, change and pretend that they didn’t leave normal somewhere thirty miles back, clinging to his sheets. But her arms and legs feel too heavy to move right now; maybe she’ll try again after five minutes.

He shrugs, “vampire Barbie’s throwing you a ‘surprise’ party, thought you should know.”

Caroline, she almost groans, and then feels a fierce love for the blonde. She would do that. In middle of everything, Caroline would throw a party. That’s who she is. That’s who Elena wishes she could be.

“I’ll remember to be surprised,” she says. Katherine would never say something mundane like that. Katherine would be inviting and stunning and how is it that the woman who wears her face is more beautiful than she is?

“Good. Blondie might stake me otherwise.” he says, shoves his hands in the leather of his jacket. They’ve become awkward. They’ve been a lot of things, bitter, angry, tense, attracted, quiet. They’ve never been awkward.

He glances up again, gives her that half-smile that she remembers, that still makes something inside her constrict, she hopes to god he never comes to know, “fancy an early morning birthday gift? Go ahead, drop the towel.”

He’s exaggerating it, making his voice go low, raising his eyebrow in pretend lasciviousness , like he hasn’t thought about it ever, hasn’t wanted it ever. And she’s sorry. So sorry she did this to him.

She drops the towel.

Elena.”

She’s never seen him like this, but she knows who he is right now. He’s the guy she should have met in 1864. The one she would’ve liked. She doesn’t like him so much; his expression’s too soft, too worshipping, too in love. It scares her a little. She hasn’t ever deserved his devotion, but she’s always been too much of a coward to tell him that.

“Nothing you haven’t seen before”, she says instead, substitutes five easy words for three much harder ones. Katherine probably looks better than her naked as well.

“What the hell, Elena—” he’s angry now. The guy she knows. It makes it easier.

“I’m a woman now, Damon” and she hates, hates, hates her voice for shaking, for betraying her, in the moment when she needs to feel—confident, sexy, something, anything, “make me feel like one.”

She cringes at the sound of her own voice. If her life had a personal editor, the cheesy, stupid line would’ve never made it to the final cut. She probably stole it from some movie. But then again, if she had a personal editor, this scene would’ve never been written at all. She’s not sure the audience would respond well to this; girl tries to seduce absent boyfriend’s older brother. It actually sounds more like the synopsis of a pornographic film; it makes her feel a little sick, the thought.

God, that’s what she’s doing here, seducing Damon. She’s an awful person.

“What are you doing?” he asks quietly.

“I don’t know,” she says. ‘Seducing you’ doesn’t sound right. ‘Asking you to make love to me’ sounds like she ripped the pages off one of those novels Caroline keeps at the back of her desk. The kind she used to read under newspaper covers when she still believed in heroes and glory and things worth fighting for.

And he’s just standing there. What the hell?

She shivers because it’s cold. Obviously because it’s cold. Not his eyes. Never his eyes.

He’s in front of her before she can even resister the shift in air. She shifts her head a little, his mouth landing on the side of her neck. She wonders if he can smell the rush of blood inside her veins. Hello, vampire. Obviously. It makes her wet. Which probably makes her a bad person. It's so hard to always keep track of all the reasons why not.

And she’s glad, so glad he doesn’t say it; are you sure you—I won’t be able to stop if—do you really want—this is so—we can’t—That isn’t who he is. Who she needs him to be right now.

“It’s legal to fuck me today,” she says; crude, completely in his face, they’ll make war before they ever make love.

He pulls back to look at her again. She looks back. Tries to. Fails. They give medals of appreciation for that sort of a thing.

His hand slips down without preamble; find her clit with practiced ease. If she could think, she’d maybe not be so surprised; he’s probably pleasured this body uncountable number of times.

She’s a little ashamed of her body’s responsiveness, like maybe it should have some reluctance of its own, not listen to the mind she has so obviously lost. But then he’s slipped two finger inside and it feels, it feels—

“You’re so,” he says, stops, sliding a third, breathing hard, and there’s this moment when she’s not the only one. That would suck.

She makes a sound she has no redemptive name for, but it makes him do that again, and it’s pretty much all her world’s reduced down to; his fingers and his eyes and his unnecessary breaths.

She comes hard, holding his shoulder much too tightly, clenching her thighs against his hand in a way she’d be mortified by if she could still think. If she could still think she’d have closed her eyes and imagined S...omeone else, pretended something else. But she’s stupid and she didn’t and now it’s just Damon. And every time she thinks about this, it is always going to be just Damon.

She shoves him away, gets down on her knees, her legs shaking, “your turn.”

Because really, all she’s learnt the past year, from that birthday to this one is how to hurt people. It’s a good skill. Katherine would probably like her better for it. And approval from the family elders, that's important, right? In the grand scheme of things family is important. And Katherine? She’s fucking family.

He looks down at her, eyes hard, “I wasn’t doing you a favor, Elena. But if you’re so eager, I’m sure we’ll have plenty of time after your birthday. You can give me my turn as many times as you want.”

He learnt how to hurt from Katherine too. They’re tragic, really. Or maybe closer to comic. Stupid, self-important people who can’t save anyone.

She stays on her knees, it’s too hard to get up again, too much effort. Maybe if she could just stay this way for a little while, forever, she could—

And then he’s down in front of her, “breathe” he says and for crazy moment her resolve is to never breathe again because that’s what he’s told her to do.

And then she’s already taken in the air. Apparently, after everything, after everyone, she's still alive.

“Happy birthday,” he says suddenly, his fingers still wet with her, it’s ridiculous and bizarre and absurd.

“Thank you,” she says. feels. means it.


 
 
80% coffee & a little bit of sass: told you to be fineearnmysong on July 19th, 2011 08:31 pm (UTC)
Whoa. Angsty deliciousness. ♥
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 05:21 am (UTC)
Oh my god, the angst is actually starting to annoy me! I USED TO BE SEMI- DECENT AT HUMOR, WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT? Haha, thanks a lot though :D
Frances: TVD - Elena - determined girlgoldy_dollar on July 19th, 2011 08:54 pm (UTC)
Okay ngl, yours is some of the only D/E fic I read. You somehow make it work for me. Echoing the sentiment that this was filled with awesome angsty deliciousness.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 05:27 am (UTC)
I really appreciate that you read my fic even though you don't ship D/E. Earlier I was fixed in my ships, but now I'm all I LOVE EVERYONE IN THIS BAR FANDOM. I would love to do Katherine and Stefan and Alaric and Stefan/Elena and Elijah/Elena and Caroline/whoever she wants and everyone basically. But I don't think I'd be very good D: Thanks so much!
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sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: TVD: DE wantbadboy_fangirl on July 19th, 2011 08:59 pm (UTC)
I'm so gutted by this. I can't even...

No words, that's what you've reduced me to. I've got no words, AND WORDS ARE MY LIFE!

The truth is when I read your fic, I never want to write again, because it's so good. It's like the bar gets raised 10, 20, 30 more feet and I'll never clear it, so why bother? I'll just read yours until the end of time, over and over, and get destroyed again and again.
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 05:47 am (UTC)
DON'T SAY THAT D: I would totally stop writing if I thought stuff I've written would make you want to stop writing! This is so not true; fic that people spend time over and develop and include a whole host of genres in are always better than something written in a coffee break period because you're afraid you've lost any and all writing skills you might have possessed (I frequently have this fear and most stuff I write is just to check).

If I read something I feel is very good, it always makes me want to write usually-- your Shannon fic made me badly want to explore Shannon as well; this couldn't have been very good if it made you feel the opposite :P BUT ILY FOR ALWAYS BEING NICE TO ME, TRUFAX, THANKS SO MUCH!
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Bogwitch: TVD - Katherinebogwitch on July 19th, 2011 09:18 pm (UTC)
>>She drops the towel.

Boom! What a line. Great stuff.
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:16 am (UTC)
Haha, it's like Enter Plot Device In A Towel, thanks so much :)
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gwenhwyfarrosegwenhwyfarrose on July 19th, 2011 10:08 pm (UTC)
I think I've forgotten the English Language. This was amazing!
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:19 am (UTC)
Well that's complimentary (I seem to have forgotten it too; I wrote complimentary as complementary initially) , thanks so much! :D
Jennabrokenbell on July 19th, 2011 11:34 pm (UTC)
*falls over*

“Nothing you haven’t seen before”, she says instead, substitutes five easy words for three much harder ones.

I can't even handle how good this is. Please write these two forever. KThx.
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:23 am (UTC)
Haha, how you guys do exaggerate :P Damon's head is my favorite sandbox really (that sounds vaguely dirty), so I usually tend to write him; but I think I might like bitter!Elena too. Thanks <33
love kickstarts again: VD: Damon/elena kitchen sex?miss_blanche on July 19th, 2011 11:57 pm (UTC)
The truth is when I read your fic, I never want to write again, because it's so good. It's like the bar gets raised 10, 20, 30 more feet and I'll never clear it, so why bother? I'll just read yours until the end of time, over and over, and get destroyed again and again.

Thanks badboy_fangirl, that sums up my feelings in a nutshell.
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:27 am (UTC)
Oh my god, you GUYS, do not say this! It’s so strange, because usually when I read something I like, it makes me want to immediately write (dangerous, it’s usually a copy of what I’d liked, haha), so this couldn’t have been very good if it makes you feel the opposite :P
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youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:29 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! Really glad you liked it :D
Wuv. Twu wuv...: hairjustbelimber on July 20th, 2011 01:35 am (UTC)
whoa. i don't know what to feel, really. but that was superb.
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:30 am (UTC)
Half the time I don't know myself what feeling I'm trying to project :P Thank you!
ever_neutral: tvd ~ my manic and iever_neutral on July 20th, 2011 01:36 am (UTC)
FFFFFFFFFF- I saw this on my flist and was immediately like: DSLFKDJFSFSLFJ ANOTHER FIC FROM YOU. LIFE HAS MEANING. lmao.

And dude. Dude. I do not even know how to deal with this one. NOT DEALING.

In middle of everything, Caroline would throw a party. That’s who she is. That’s who Elena wishes she could be.

OMGGGG I love how you've turned their friendship right around like that, love itttt.

If her life had a personal editor, the cheesy, stupid line would’ve never made it to the final cut. She probably stole it from some movie. But then again, if she had a personal editor, this scene would’ve never been written at all. She’s not sure the audience would respond well to this; girl tries to seduce absent boyfriend’s older brother. It actually sounds more like the synopsis of a pornographic film; it makes her feel a little sick, the thought.

I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS. (in case you didn't get the message before.) JUST. GAWD. I love this idea you've woven through the whole thing about how the two of them are NOT VERY RIGHT, and totally not something the audience WOULD RESPOND WELL TO, LMFAO. (because shit is gonna go DOWN when these two finally fuck. I cannot wait for the fandom meltdown.) A+++. And then you have Elena talking about how she's ~legal now~ and oh man, I cannot. My girl.

If she could still think she’d have closed her eyes and imagine S...omeone else, pretended something else. But she’s stupid and she didn’t and now it’s just Damon. And every time she thinks about this, it is always going to be just Damon.

DECEASED. YES. YES. YES ALWAYS AND INFINITY. That capital "S" is so poignant, and the stuff following that is even better. It should be Stefan always--but Damon fucks up everything, doesn't he? Mmmmhm.

lol, I'm so sorry about this long stupid comment, man. Excitable shipper is excitable.
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 07:19 am (UTC)
THIS IS TOTALLY YOUR FAULT OKAY; YOUR ‘Elena Discussion’ MADE ME WANT TO EXPLORE HER SO BADLY. And explore her in the ‘I’m going to be a bitch about this because I grew a million years from the last birthday to this one and it sucks’ sort of way. I like bratty!Elena a lot, I think, heh. I was reading people’s views of Elena and pretty much everyone (with a few notable exceptions) liked her because she always put others first, and tried to save the people she loves and is so genuinely caring, and I was wondering whether Elena felt that way about herself after everything.

OMGGGG I love how you've turned their friendship right around like that, love itttt.

HAHA, obvious authorial insertion is obvious, I always think Caroline has so many things to be jealous of (INCLUDING THAT FACE) and it can’t be all one-sided. The girl got killed and turned and the first person she fed from was compelled to believe her husband got “kinky” with her. AWESOME.

I love this idea you've woven through the whole thing about how the two of them are NOT VERY RIGHT, and totally not something the audience WOULD RESPOND WELL TO, LMFAO.

I NEVER META TV REFERENCE I DIDN’T LIKE (SEE WHAT I DID THERE?) But ohmygod yes to fandom meltdowns, there is nothing I don’t like about people bitch-fighting over characters and their motivations. COKE’S ON ME, GET THE POPCORN SOMEONE.

lol, I'm so sorry about this long stupid comment, man.

Considering the entire fic is your fault, I DO NOT ACCEPT THE APOLOGY. I’m adding that to my author’s notes, YOU CANNOT STOP ME.
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youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:36 am (UTC)
Thanks so much, I appreciate it! :D I tend not to write Elena too much (more a Damon-writing person) but you made me happy. Everyone’s like ‘Elena is so nice and kind and good’ and I was just wondering whether Elena feels any of that. Selfish!bitter!young!Elena is really my favorite; I hope so much we get to see some of that in the third season— the girl's been through so much, she should get a chance to do crazy, stupid, teenagery things that do not involve her getting drained of blood for a sacrifice D: And Elena hating-but-being-fascinated-by Katherine makes me happy!
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omgnothxx on July 20th, 2011 02:18 am (UTC)
This was absolutely amazing and so so heartbreaking.
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:39 am (UTC)
I NEED TO CHANGE GENRES OCCASIONALLY, but haha, thanks a lot :)
k_stjamesk_stjames on July 20th, 2011 02:45 am (UTC)
Wow, I thought the story was going one way then she dropped the towel and I was totally blown away. Loved the end because it seemed so real and heartfelt. Will you be continuing?
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:42 am (UTC)
After what Stefan did for him, I really think Damon shouldn't make any moves on Elena, so any D/E will have to be on Elena's initiative, ergo the towel-dropping ( also, because I'm clichéd like that ;) I probably won't continue this, but I might write more 'birthday' fics, heh. Thanks so much! <3
sillyforwordssillyforwords on July 20th, 2011 02:54 am (UTC)
That was amazigly heart breaking. Poor Elena.. Poor DAMON! Please tell me you're going to continue. I can't bear to leave the two of them in this place.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:44 am (UTC)
Haha, I REALLY hope you haven't read any other of my fics because I tend to leave them at even worse places usually! I don't have any ideas for this, but if I ever do, I would love to continue :) Thanks so much!
нσω ∂σ уσυ нσℓ∂ α мσση вєαм ιη уσυʀ нαη∂?: diaries ♔ damon; wrong answerfiddlings on July 20th, 2011 03:57 am (UTC)
UGH, DILEMMA, LET ME SHOW YOU IT.

Huge, huge, huge spoiler-phobe. But absolutely in love with your fic. WHAT DO I DO? D:
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 04:46 am (UTC)
HAHA, well there is this very minor spoiler (although it's interesting to wonder whether somebody'd know it was a spoiler at all unless they knew it was!) so if you don't like those at all-- DON'T READ THE FIC! There'll be time enough in September if you still want to :D
LVBphantompopcorn on July 20th, 2011 05:38 am (UTC)
That was wonderfully angsty, hot and haunting all at the same time. How hard it must be for Elena to be the second doppelganger. Loved it!
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:47 am (UTC)
I just really liked playing around with bitter!Elena a bit too much- the girl so needs a break after everything, she can't be good and kind and sacrificial all the time. Basically she and Damon should go to Georgia and get drunk (and then search for Stefan, Because I do love him as well!) Thanks so much <3
Myramidnightblack07 on July 20th, 2011 05:45 am (UTC)
OMGOSH THIS IS SO BRILLIANT, YOU HAVE REDUCED ME TO A FLAILING MESS!! =O

Guh, seriously though I am GUTTED!! THIS is what the show needs to be doing with Elena right now, letting all these things--these deaths, these near death experiences, this pain, this confusion--take its toll on her so that we're left with this heart-breakingly believable shell of a girl (of only for a little while, until she gets it together).

& your Damon is so perfect I literally have NO WORDS. THIS is the Damon we need to be seeing in season 3 show-runners!!

Gaaah everything you write is so brilliant <33
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 06:57 am (UTC)
LISTEN YOU ARE TOTALLY EXAGGERATING AND BEING NICE BUT I LOVE YOU FOR IT, SO.

But honestly, it's like Elena really broke down a couple of times, but I want her reactions to be more like, I don't know, a teenagers'? A little whiny, a little bratty, a little 'oh-god-why-me', and Damon really brings that side out usually (considering how many times she tries to slap him or throw things at him, heh) and I think if they're left together like they are, they're going to combust either way; kill each other, or 'die' in the French way, haha.

Damon is so much my favorite to write; he's so conflicted and snarky and unbelievably open. And he also can't handle feelings, fun! :D

THANKS SO MUCH, OKAY <33
felixtastic on July 20th, 2011 07:32 am (UTC)
Psst. They're not exaggerating. This is exceptionally brilliant. I started to pull aside lines that I liked to leave in the comment...but then it became every single line so I gave up.

Hope you stick with Delena for a while, it's a treat for the rest of us.
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 07:55 am (UTC)
That's such a nice thing to say, really! The internet is such a space of anonymity and yet nobody ever goes 'bitch, this sucks', so that's something to be appreciated, heh. I don't do Elena often, and I tend to write her pretty different from the show, so I'm just glad that you liked it anyway. I occasionally wander over to Damon/Caroline (whom I love to pieces as well), but mostly I tend to stick with Delena. Thanks so much :D
Violet: vampires - one of these days.amoenavi on July 20th, 2011 05:58 pm (UTC)
Why are you so perfect? Guh, I love the angst in this and yet the understanding underlying everything they do and wow.
youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 20th, 2011 07:32 pm (UTC)
I'm turning to one of those people who stick to one genre like glue, THE ANGST NEEDS TO GTFO AND MAKE WAY FOR SOME HUMOR, TRUFAX. Haha, but thanks so much <33
comeundone_82: Hurt scenecomeundone_82 on July 20th, 2011 09:34 pm (UTC)
Haha going crazy thinking about what Damon might possibly do now that it´s Elena´s 18th b-day and I couldn´t picture anything because...well it´s Damon. I guess I got my answer now (and everything the show is going to do will just be...lame now).

I was holing my breath during this. That´s why your stories always work for me! Thanks for writing them ;)
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 21st, 2011 12:22 pm (UTC)
Haha, that's really nice of you to say! And I've been going crazy wondering that too; I'm so waiting for Damon's reaction (and for Caroline to throw a party, because that is totally what my bb would do) and a possible gift and EVERYTHING, GUH.

I'm really glad they work for you, and thank you for always taking time out to comment! <33
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Starbuck: fools for love spuffyworldwasasong on July 21st, 2011 02:13 am (UTC)
Gaaaah. Made my chest go all tight with sad-but-perfect-ness. In short, loved it!
youcallitwinter: of the things i've learned about a boyyoucallitwinter on July 21st, 2011 12:23 pm (UTC)
I always end up writing them like this even though I try so hard not to! But I'm glad it worked for you, thanks :D
KNOXEDgreyorchids on July 21st, 2011 03:19 am (UTC)
This made me feel a little bit sad.

Not complaining, but shesh! I think what works here is Elena's POV being characterized the way you have done.. I also hear Damon's voice the loudest, so I appreciate how this went down.

youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 21st, 2011 12:25 pm (UTC)
I usually write fic from Damon's POV so really glad that Elena's wasn't completely OOC! Haha, I don't mean to make anyone sad, I would love to get out of that mode of writing! Thanks so much :)
Gabby: pictionarygabby227 on July 21st, 2011 09:45 pm (UTC)
God, this is just so angsty, and so freaking good. I LOVE IT.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love your fics? <3
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 22nd, 2011 12:32 pm (UTC)
WELL, HELLO THERE, LONG TIME. I missed you! And thanks so much, I want to move out of the angst genre, but these two just refuse to allow it D:
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youcallitwinter: if you steal my sunshineyoucallitwinter on July 24th, 2011 04:43 pm (UTC)
God, seriously, if I'm ever depressed, I should just totally read your comments. Day made :D Thanks so much! <33
Sandrine: Damon/Elenasandrine on July 24th, 2011 02:53 pm (UTC)
That was amazing! I loved the angst and how broken Elena is and how she tries to reclaim control by actively seducing Damon, which is something that I don't see often in fanfic - usually it's Damon pushing Elena until she gives in. It was a refreshing change of perspective and it worked so well for the situation they're in right now.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on July 24th, 2011 04:59 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad that you saw it as Elena trying to gain back control and not like her just moving onto Damon as soon as the playing field's clear! And I think I'll be a little disappointed if Damon tries to make a move esp after what Stefan did for him, so the initiative will have to be Elena's imo- I want so badly to see her all messed up and bitter *nods* thanks! :D