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17 August 2011 @ 09:36 pm
Fic: This Is The Story  



title: 
this is the story
rating: r
pairing: damon/elena/stefan
prompt: some, they crawled their way into your heart, to rend your ventricles apart, this is the story of the boys who loved you.
a/n: written for the threesome comment ficathon for scorpiod1's lovely prompt!
disclaimer: disclaimed. graphic source. Also, The Decemberist's 'red right ankle' where the prompt is from.



This is the story of her right red ankle.



x



"I think," she says, and stops.

"too much?" Stefan smiles at her, playfully. He's impossibly beautiful in her bed. His hand on her breast, her heartbeat a metered rise and fall. She always feels close to poetry in his arms.

"yeah," she says, lies, always. Doesn't finish we could stay this way forever.

If there's anything she's learnt from wars and blood and things that will never be the same; forever is a long time.

He pulls her closer, hands sliding down her body, fingers entering her with practiced ease, and because she's foolish and she's seventeen, she thinks love- we could- I want- forever again. 



x



This is the story of her gypsy uncle.



x



Sometimes he's there when she comes out of the bath. And sometimes she ties the towel a little lower because sometimes he's there when she comes out of the bath.

"You're trying to seduce me, Mrs. Robinson," he says, exaggerates, tries to make it sound like he doesn't care. Fails.

"Shut up, Damon," she says indifferently. Doesn't tell him it's true (but only sometimes), doesn't tell herself it's true (but only sometimes, that's important, only sometimes).

"Anything else you think my mouth should be occupied with?" he's crude, and he's in her face, and she's sorry she did this to him. She's sorry he's in love with her, but only a little.

"Anything you wanted, Damon?"

His eyes slide down, involuntarily answering her. She wonders if he sees Katherine sometimes, wonders if Katherine has that same mark on the inside of her thigh, wonders if Damon knows if she does. Wonders if Damon's worshiped it like Stefan does hers. Doesn't ask. She's seventeen and foolish, but she's still older than she used to be.

"Just your friendly neighborhood watch, remember" he shrugs, leaves before she can yell at him, or drop her towel; there's a fraction of a second each time when she isn't sure which one it'll be.



x



This is the story of the boys who loved her.



x



"You can--" he stops, he probably learnt it from her, her sweet, innocent Stefan. Not so innocent, not anymore, not after Klaus. 

"Stefan means you can leave," he completes bluntly, this other boy, he's always blunt, breaking the air around her into fragments, she can't breathe sometimes, "live somewhere else. Be someone else. There's nothing left in this town."

There's nobody left in this town.

"I think that's my choice, Damon," she watches her harsh tone cut through the stone of his glance, the hardness of his eyes; they all learnt pretense from the same woman. She's more beautiful though, that woman with her face, it's strange.

They're both looking at her and it's a little ridiculous how loved she is, the girl who killed her parents. Karma probably got lost in the way to her house, mistook Jenna for her. 

"How can you stay," he's tired, Stefan, he's been away so long, so very, very long, "how can you possibly stay, Elena, after---everything." I've done, he doesn't say, doesn't need to, she hears it anyway and oh god, please don't ask her this.

Because she's not who she used to be either, not anymore. They don't see that, these boys who love her.

"It's my decision," she says, again, like she has a choice, like maybe if the inflection is different they won't see how pathetic she is, how much she needs them, "you don't get to decide for me."

Tonight she'll go back to her room, and all the things she's lost, but tomorrow, the day after, someday, she'll come back. To his smile, to his brother's eyes. She'll always come back.

(It's okay, you know, to love them both.)

Strange how she can't get Katherine out of her mirror, her smile, her eyes.



x



This is the story of a girl she once knew.
 
 
 
Bogwitchbogwitch on August 17th, 2011 05:27 pm (UTC)
Lovely!
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 17th, 2011 05:31 pm (UTC)
Thanks! :)
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youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 17th, 2011 06:43 pm (UTC)
Haha, I know what you mean, this is a bit of experimentation for me as well, never written Elena with anyone other than Damon before!

And oh, yay! You made me happy by mentioning that, because I did want to show that Elena's mirroring Katherine not at the very overt level, but also in things she doesn't know about. Even though Elena'd probably be confused on that point, imo none of this actually makes her Katherine!
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youcallitwinter: to better counter-act his charm attackyoucallitwinter on August 17th, 2011 07:15 pm (UTC)
I know! I don't at ALL think that loving them both will make her 'like Katherine' in any way. (Katherine apparently never loved them both anyway). But really, I'd love to see that conflict in her 'growing relationship' with Damon, that she's somehow basically Katherine vs. 2.0 and the show needs to deliver on that srsly *nods*
Sandrine: Elenasandrine on August 17th, 2011 07:23 pm (UTC)
That's very poetic and all around awesome. And this is a killer line:

Strange how she can't get Katherine out of her mirror, her smile, her eyes.

I love the way you write Elena!
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 17th, 2011 07:32 pm (UTC)
You already have a gorgeous season-3 icon? Awesome

Thanks so much, I just like writing Elena's inner monologues, even if they probably don't fit with the show-canon-Elena. :D
Sandrine: Elenasandrine on August 17th, 2011 07:38 pm (UTC)
When I saw the BTS pic of Nina on the bed reading the script, it just screamed "make an icon of this" at me. :D

Thanks so much, I just like writing Elena's inner monologues, even if they probably don't fit with the show-canon-Elena. :D

To be honest, I have such an extensive head canon for Elena that I sometimes forget exactly what show-canon!Elena is like. (Which is a bit of a problem in the fic I'm currently writing because I keep second guessing my characterization. :/)
youcallitwinter: to better counter-act his charm attackyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 02:15 pm (UTC)
I know, I've been making S3 icons too, bright colors and bedrooms, ABSOLUTELY NO RESISTANCE, I tell you :P

I KNOW, RIGHT? But I think the best thing is that it's possible to write Elena in any whichever way, best part of being a teenager; she can be moody, angsty, impossibly happy, responsible, irresponsible, angry, volatile, sexy; the works. New fic makes me all interested :DD I'm pretty sure you'll nail characterization!!
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youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 02:17 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank youu! :D
dante_kentdante_kent on August 17th, 2011 10:56 pm (UTC)
I've been reading your stories for ages and have loved every single one of them, and I think it's high time I break my antisocial silence and tell you how gorgeous this is. You always get right into the heads of the characters, and I find that especially impressive with Elena, who is so hard to entirely pin down. Sometimes I think you understand Elena better than the writers do (blasphemy! But probably true).

This story is stunning. I'm absolutely in love with this line:
She watches her harsh tone cut through the stone of his glance, the hardness of his eyes; they all learnt pretense from the same woman.

BEAUTIFUL. The whole sordid Katherine story and how much she made them all is so fascinating, and I love that you can communicate the import of her effect in one line. Basically, I love your writing, and I can't wait for the next story.
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 03:18 pm (UTC)
Well, hello there :D I'm glad you decided to de-lurk, discussions are always fun!

Haha, that's being far too nice; I suppose I like that Elena can be interpreted in so many ways; especially because I do think there'd be this massive disjunct between her thoughts and words and actions. So fic-writing is fun (and so much more easier than show-writing) because you can make her think whatever, and no one can say it isn't canon because who knows, right? ;)

But honestly, I prefer Elena being a little more self-aware (to her attraction to Damon, for instance, even if she doesn't act on it, doesn't like it, I want her to know it) and a lot more messed up and much more like a teenager. And also constantly comparing herself to and in a bizarre way feeling like she 'falls short' of Katherine.

Thank you so much for the lovely comment! :D
unoshotunoshot on August 18th, 2011 03:27 am (UTC)
So, you can tell I have regular internet access at the moment because I am like -- zip! -- all over this, right.

They're both looking at her and it's a little ridiculous how loved she is, the girl who killed her parents.

As usual, I love all your throwaway details and the littlest lines and the flowy bits. So basically all of it. But also? I've been trying to find good TVD fic in general, and I am still having the worst time, because almost all the romance stuff is Elena + Damon 4eva (and who cares about that Stefan dude) -- or, much more rarely, the other way 'round, and the whole joy of the narrative is in the tension, you know?

In short, I knew you wouldn't let me down. ;)
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 03:00 pm (UTC)
Oh, HAI THERE. I MISSED YOU.

Since Big Top remains THE go-to fic for Elena characterization, I appreciate this comment so much :D

You know what they say about stuff that you want that doesn't exist? You gotta make it yourself...not to be obvious or anything. But honestly, I know what you mean, this is exactly the reason why I focus my fic-attention more on Damon/Caroline (although there's some really terrible writing/characterization on that side as well, and since it's so much less of fic, it's all the worse in terms of wasted potential). Damon/Elena seem to bring forth All The Star-Cross'd Lovers Ever Written. My greatest fear is that the show might take the same angle, please, just no more epic love stories.


Hope you stay around :DD (AND PARTICIPATE IN THE FICATHON AND WATCH THE FIRST SEASON IF YOU STILL HAVEN'T).
unoshotunoshot on August 19th, 2011 01:48 am (UTC)
You know what they say about stuff that you want that doesn't exist? You gotta make it yourself...not to be obvious or anything.

Hmmm.

Hmmmm.

Okay. So what you're saying is, if I lurk around long enough, you will totally write more fic and I will be appeased. I mean, if I'm following you right. ;)

Also, HI WINTER and I am still traveling but should be home soon. I am kind of curious to see where the TVD premiere picks up, timeline-wise, and what holes will need to be filled in. Usually the plotting is so tight it's hard to find room to play within canon. And I loves me some canon.

Since Big Top remains THE go-to fic

You will make me blush all over the internet!

no more epic love stories

This should be a motto! With a full coat of arms. Maybe a lion rampant.

In short: hi! I am around, I shall likely write something more once I have time, but inspiration has yet to beat me about the head. So I leech off your creativity like a writhing electronic parasite.
youcallitwinter: to better counter-act his charm attackyoucallitwinter on August 19th, 2011 11:34 am (UTC)
Okay. So what you're saying is...

Hahaha, smart you are, eh :P

Seriously, I'm interested in the season premiere as well, because all the promo pictures have been so interesting (and so far removed from where the second season ended) that I'm dying of curiosity to find out what all has changed; it seems a lot has. And it'll be fun to see how all the dynamics would've changed because of Stefan's disappearance.

Well, anytime you feel like writing, I'll definitely be stalking waiting :D and I know that feeling, I want to write Caroline-fic, but RL keeps interfering like nobody's business D:
Myramidnightblack07 on August 18th, 2011 06:21 am (UTC)
YOUR WRITING ALWAYS PUTS HEARTS IN MY EYES <333

Seriously though, you have a such a lovely way with words--I can't even O_O

You set the melancholy tone so beautifully and there are few people who can do angsty!Elena nearly as well as you do and everything is just HEARTS IN MY EYES <333

They're both looking at her and it's a little ridiculous how loved she is, the girl who killed her parents. Karma probably got lost in the way to her house, mistook Jenna for her.

THAT LINE OMG I want to beat it for tearing out my heart and then marry it and have its babies for being so darn BRILLIANT =O
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 02:23 pm (UTC)
SO DOES YOURS, YOU KNOW /mutual appreciation society.

I AM WAITING FOR YOU TO PARTICIPATE IN THE FICATHON *nods*

My Elena is always angsty-ridden and teenagery-y and responsible for everything bad that happens in the world (oh, Elena) I've said this before but srsly, all I want from season three is for Elena to be this hot, glorious mess. PLEASE, SHOW, DO THIS FOR THE HUMANITY.

<3333
Soph: vamprieiansophiaiswisdom on August 18th, 2011 06:59 am (UTC)
Very good!
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 18th, 2011 02:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
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youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 20th, 2011 10:27 am (UTC)
The fandom gives Elena a lot of flack for being 'manipulative' and what not, but imo that makes her a good character. I basically want S3 Elena to be a bitchy, teenage mess! Thanks so much :)
cross_rubicon: now there's a romancecross_rubicon on August 22nd, 2011 01:52 am (UTC)
very very powerful and kind of understandably dark. Which I like. :) I love how she can't quite get away from Katherine.
youcallitwinter: and I'm here to get it back from youyoucallitwinter on August 22nd, 2011 01:15 pm (UTC)
This is kind of dark! I somehow always end up writing Elena that way, haha, and Elena/Katherine dynamic is fascinating really! Thanks so much :)
cross_rubiconcross_rubicon on August 22nd, 2011 05:16 pm (UTC)
I actually need them to go even more into Katherine-Elena than anything else this season. More interactions, more everything, because I totally agree. I'm so curious about what being a double truly implies for an individual person ahh!
youcallitwinter: to better counter-act his charm attackyoucallitwinter on August 22nd, 2011 06:33 pm (UTC)
Exactly! Not to mention Katherine is obviously Elena's ancestor, and so what that means for them; the whole being-so-different-yet-connected thing. Maybe they aren't so different, I'd love if that was explored!
aerintine: Elena is grievingaerintine on October 6th, 2011 02:01 am (UTC)
Oooh. Here we are with the mirrors again. Beautiful imagery. I adore your Elena POV.