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27 October 2011 @ 04:04 am
fic: for the earth is hollow (and I have touched the sky)  



title:
for the earth is hollow (and I have touched the sky)
rating: r
pairing: damon gen (/stefan/katherine/elena)
a/n: in which the title is longer than the fic.
disclaimer: disclaimed.




Damon hates him sometimes, this child with the eyes like mother’s. He stole her eyes. Shut hers by opening his.

“Will you tell me a story tonight, Damon? Please?”

(“Will you tell me a story tonight, mother? Please”)

He refuses. Tells it anyway.

“Did she die?” his brother asks later, eyes wide, lower lip caught on a tremble, innocence at the tips of his clasped hands, “that lady in your story. Did she die, Damon?”

“No,” he says, looks at his brother, looks into his mother’s eyes, “she lived.”






“I think Miss Clarissa likes you,” Stefan says confidentially, standing a little taller at the thought of being able to talk about girls with his older brother, “she keeps looking over at our table.”

He glances at her; the marks of his lips might be hidden behind cloth this morning, but she’s still dirty, used.

"Good morning, Miss Lockwood, fine day we're having," he tips off his hat as he passes her by, watch her face fall.

He doesn’t make the same mistake over.

“Never fall in love,” he tells Stefan, turns away from her gaze, which speaks of the fatal mistake he shall never make, “there is only one rule in this world, brother; never fall in love.”






Traitor, his father will say. You are no son of mine, his father will say.

He bows down before the body of a man he ate with once, tries to remember the words of the prayers he used to know by heart. Leaves them incomplete.

Walks away from the blood.





Her dark hair spills over her breasts, laughing eyes staring straight into his. He could paint her like this, he thinks sometimes. We don’t worship idols, his father would say.

“Are you afraid, Mr. Salvatore?” she asks, naked skin covering his. Maybe it’s easier in the dark when she doesn’t have to see his face, when his name could be his brother’s.

“Are you,” he breathes, “are you afraid, Miss Pierce?”

She smiles widely, moonlight bathing the veins under her eyes, “sometimes. When I think of your brother.”

He stops, still inside her, “and when you think of me?”

She bends down, catches the blood dripping down the side of his neck at the tip of her tongue, “then I am not afraid anymore.”

He thrusts his hips upward then, satisfied. Stefan has everything, but this is something he shall never have.

(days weeks years decades a century later he’ll understand what she means).





He bites her sometimes, teeth drawing blood, tongue recoiling at the taste.

“Damon,” she whispers, eyes glazed over with lust, open, inviting, “my sweet, innocent Damon.”

My, he thinks, hers.

(The scars on her body fade away as soon as he leaves them. His stay).





This is how it ends.

(he loses his innocence with his brother watching and the blood of a girl no one shall ever remember sliding down his throat.)





“You can wait for Stefan here, if you want.”

She smiles up at him; it’s all wrong, not provocative enough, not Katherine enough, “if you don’t mind.”

“Mind time alone with a pretty girl,” he shrugs, sitting beside her, “are you crazy?”

She laughs again, self-consciously tucks her hair behind her ears (no he wants to say, leave them loose). The smell of her arousal hits him then. He hasn’t touched her. Doesn’t need to. Won't. Not this copy with the wrong smile, hair, smell.

“I’m sorry, I’m staring.”

She almost stole the sound of her laughter from someone else. Almost, not quite, “you aren’t,” she says, amends, “okay, maybe just a little.”

"You're beautiful," lowers his voice, turns on the charm, "and I'm an artist. It's a given, really."

She can't doesn't look up at him again. He fills the silence with her racing heartbeat.





‘You remind me of someone I used to know’, he’ll tell her later when she's leaving with Stefan. Flirt outrageously, make her lower her eyes. Bite her lip. Look back once.

Mock his brother silently for breaking it, for forgetting.

There is only one rule, brother.

(He doesn’t make the same mistake over)



[Ugh, stupid writer's block, I just can't seem to be able to write anything these days D: I so want to do the holiday fic requests thing but I know myself well enough to know I'll never actually do it on the dates. /sigh]
 
 
 
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youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 09:05 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you!

Haha, probably nothing, since I want to write fic these days (which is a given; everytime I have a million other things to do and exams coming up, I always want to write fic). I'll probably make a fic request post or something!
нσω ∂σ уσυ нσℓ∂ α мσση вєαм ιη уσυʀ нαη∂?: diaries ♔ damon; brokenfiddlings on October 26th, 2011 11:46 pm (UTC)
Oh, I loved this! It's not something I would usually read, as I don't usually do pre-series, but I made an exception for you. I'm glad I did. Your fic never disappoints. ♥
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 09:10 am (UTC)
Thank you! <3 Ooh, this is interesting; by 'pre series' do you mean you don't read any fic set before the real-time action of the show? Or do you still read the ones set in times that we've been shown; like 1864 or the 1920's? /curiosity that killed the cat.
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ever_neutral: d/e ~ the idiot shipever_neutral on October 27th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)
OMGGGGGG DAMON AS WRITER OMGGGGGG OUR BRAINS ARE ONE \o/ \o/ \o/

She bends down, catches the blood dripping down the side of his neck at the tip of her tongue, “then I’m not afraid anymore.”

UGGHHHHH WHAT IS THIS TRAGIC BEAUTYYYYYY.

The smell of her arousal hits him then. He hasn’t touched her. Doesn’t need to. Not the copy with the wrong smile, hair, smell.

DSLFKDSJFLDKSDSLFKJD ;DDDDDDDD

so yeah, I like this, obvs. Your Damon is so exactly like my own--sharp, pessimistic, bored, only vulnerable when you look closely, etc. etc.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 09:17 am (UTC)
I THINK WE'VE PRETTY MUCH ESTABLISHED OUR BRAINS' CONJOINEDNESS .

But seriously, in my extensive headcanon for this show Damon writes and is an excellent artist and Elena totally crushed on him in this 'hot-older-guy :D' way when she first met him. /trufax

Your Damon is so exactly like my own--sharp, pessimistic, bored, only vulnerable when you look closely.

THAT IS MY DAMON EXACTLY. HE IS SO MUCH A TRAGEDY UNTO HIMSELF.
waltzmatildah: tvd: katherine drinkswaltzmatildah on October 27th, 2011 11:21 am (UTC)
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! ♥

Also,

but I know myself well enough to know I'll never actually do it on the dates. Craaaaap. Does this mean you're expecting your prompts on the day I allocated them? YIKES?!! Hehehe! (I have the WORST track record with these things so, DO IIIIIIIIIT ANYWAY! No one will mind, PROMISE!)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 11:47 am (UTC)
Hahaha, no, no, not at all :D As long as I get fic, I definitely don't mind the dates at all. [ALSO, WHEN THE FICS ARE SURE TO BE EPIC, LIKE, WHO'S COMPLAINING ABOUT THE DAYS PASSING BY]. And as someone who is CONSTANTLY late for everything, I completely sympathize. GO YOU <33
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(Anonymous) on October 27th, 2011 01:51 pm (UTC)
Your writing style is absolutely incredible and this was a brilliant Damon characterization; so many excellent lines:

We don’t worship idols, his father would say.
The scars on her body fade away as soon as he leaves them. His stay
Flirt outrageously, make her lower her eyes. Bite her lip. Look back once.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 03:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Your choice of lines really made me :D
semi-titled: damon close-up smilepocochina on October 27th, 2011 03:55 pm (UTC)
Oh, God, Damon. This is gorgeous.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 04:56 pm (UTC)
I love my psychopaths D: Thank you! <3
x5valex5vale on October 27th, 2011 06:28 pm (UTC)
I usually don't do pre series, but this was so good I couldn't resist :)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 27th, 2011 06:39 pm (UTC)
Aww, I'm really glad you decided to give it a read despite that, thanks so much! :D
Crystal: vampire diaries | katherine | on airpetitebelette on October 28th, 2011 02:59 am (UTC)
This is like a punch in the gut. An awesome, wonderful, transcendent study of Damon kind of punch in the gut.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 28th, 2011 08:53 am (UTC)
Well that's a wonderful description, so much better than 'that in which nothing really happens', thanks so much! :D
Florencia: DE (I'm Happy)florencia7 on October 28th, 2011 10:09 pm (UTC)
I love love love love... have I mentioned LOVE? your writing style. It's pure magic. Fantastic fic! ♥
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 29th, 2011 04:00 pm (UTC)
I'm so stunned you actually took the time out to read despite everything that's been going on, thank you so much! <3
Dee: the vampire diaries; delenadefine_serenity on October 29th, 2011 04:16 pm (UTC)
this is absolutely breathtaking. i don't read much fanfiction, but every once in a while i'll give it a try and it's stuff like this that makes me regret i don't give fanfiction a shot more often! i love the glimpses you offer into Stefan and Damon's life growing up together, the little moments you chose to touch upon that we know from the show. absolutely gorgeous, thank you for this wonderful piece of art :))
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 29th, 2011 08:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the lovely comment! ♥ I used to read a hell lot of fic, but I haven't in a while now, which sucks, because some of the most brilliant pieces I've ever read have been fanfiction! Stefan and Damon actually living up to their younger/older brother roles in 1864 just make me happy, haha. :D
Traciestrangedazey on October 29th, 2011 11:02 pm (UTC)
Star Trek title! The story was gorgeous! Really beautifully done ;)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 30th, 2011 09:05 am (UTC)
Haha, yeah, I loved that title! Thanks so much, glad you liked it :)
Gabby: carolinegabby227 on October 30th, 2011 12:07 am (UTC)
I love it, but I feel it's a little sad. Although, it's brilliant. I love love LOVE it. You captured Damon beautifully.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 30th, 2011 09:16 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! <33 I didn't mean to make it sad, but I suppose Damon is so much a tragedy for himself that it's inevitable, heh.
a girl like that: katherinebbycassiehayes on October 30th, 2011 01:57 am (UTC)
eeeee, wow, I love this, so sad and beautiful and just wow, talk about lines that pack a punch. I love 1864 fic and I adore the way you've written Damon in this, guh.

"there is only one rule in this world, brother; never fall in love.” THIS, oh gosh, knowing what follows for the two of them... oh Damon D:

(days weeks years decades a century later he’ll understand what she means). OH, this was just so painful and yet spot-on, Damon spending all that time wrapped up in Katherine, refusing to see, still loving her, asljdlsjds, I just love the way you wrote this.

And then Damon comparing Elena to Katherine, she's not anything enough in his mind, the ways he idolizes Katherine in the end after all, everything flows so well -- and then the last line is perfect. <3
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 30th, 2011 09:28 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, I'm actually really glad this worked for you because I love exploring Damon but he has so many contradictory characteristics that I just never know if I got him at all!

THIS, oh gosh, knowing what follows for the two of them.

I do love that about Damon; he's so impossibly jaded and yet he always responds to everything with the sort of intensity that practically no one does. :O

amon spending all that time wrapped up in Katherine, refusing to see, still loving her.

MAN, I'D REALLY LIKE TO SEE FLASHBACKS TO THE TIME WHEN HE WAS SEARCHING FOR HER. Like, seriously, even Bree said something about how "after all this time, it's still Katherine", and obviously he had a lot of pseudo-relationships and I really want that on my screen!
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Myramidnightblack07 on October 30th, 2011 04:55 am (UTC)
GAH THIS IS BRILLIANT (of course lol)!! =O

I love the melancholy of it all, how everything seems to go back to Stefan and Katherine for him She smiles up at him; it’s all wrong, not provocative enough, not Katherine enough</i>

I LOVED THIS, and I can so easily imagine Damon lamenting how "un-Katherine" everything about Elena was when he first met her *sighs*
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 30th, 2011 09:36 am (UTC)
YOU ARE MY IDOL BECAUSE YOU'RE WRITING ME HOLIDAY FIC :D

I think that's why I think Damon/Elena was an organic growth, because I'm pretty sure that Damon didn't fall for Elena because of her face or anything that reminded him of Katherine. In fact, I think he would've disliked her for all the things that reminded him of Katherine, because she couldn't ever actually BE Katherine in his eyes. But then later he obviously realized he was in love with Elena for being Elena /shipper.
turquoisetumult: [SPN] Castiel: pretty blue eyesturquoisetumult on October 31st, 2011 12:28 am (UTC)
Wow - this is fantastic. Love how you took us down the road from their childhood. Lovely writing too - evocative and beautiful. Great fic!
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on October 31st, 2011 07:50 pm (UTC)
I think the at time of the Salvatore brothers would have been really interesting to watch! I love the idea of big!brother Damon, haha. Thank you :)