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18 March 2012 @ 11:19 pm
fic: just a little less conversation  


title:
just a little less conversation
rating: r
pairing: elena/damon/stefan
warnings: clueless reference. the decemberists reference. randomness
a/n: written for the salvatore comment ficathon [which, go write.]
disclaimer: disclaimed. image source.
upupa_epops's amazing prompt: I'm sorry it's such a lousy story.


When she thinks about it, she thinks it’s a lousy story.

(Girl meets boy. Falls in love. It starts like this.)

It has way too many ellipses to be anything more than fragments of clichés picked from all the love stories that were lost in translation. The kind that never became tragic because they were too common and nobody ever really died and people loved way too much, too desperately, for it to be aesthetically pleasing. She thinks she’d like to be tragic. She thinks she’d like to be tragic more than she’d like to be alive, because she’s pretty much a fucking tragedy for everyone else in her life.

(He kisses her hand. She doesn’t pull away. It starts like this.)


-


I will always choose you—

It’s you and me forever, Stefan.

Where were you, Damon?

You had me—

She’ll write a story someday. A girl. Two boys. Their names starting with a ‘D’ and an ‘S’, because she’s not original, really, never has been. Look at her face.

So anyway, two boys. And this girl. And everyone will hate the girl because seriously, why does everyone in-text seem to love her so much, it’s annoying. “I’d die for you,” someone will say every two pages in, and someone will die for her every four pages in, and another girl somewhere will drop the book. “There’s no reason for why anything happens,” she’ll tell her friend, “it’s a lousy story.”


-


There will be an epiphany somewhere.  The kind that shatters over you and cuts into your skin and there’s a brightly lit fountain moment where you know you love Josh. She doesn’t love Josh. She doesn’t even know who Josh is. But there will be an epiphany. She’ll know then. Won’t be another girl who’ll crawl her way into their heart just to rip their ventricles apart (that’s from a song she once heard, she’s never been original).

It’s okay, you know, to love them both.

“What a bitch,” someone will say, the darkness of the theatre a distant memory, “they’re trying to make a strong heroine or whatever. But she’s totally leading them both on. Can’t make up her fucking mind. I’m glad I never bothered reading the book. Why would anyone make a movie of it anyway?”


-


So what will happen is this: everyone will be forgiven because, in the end, forgiveness will be all they’ll have left to give.

“I love you,” one of the boys will say. (She doesn’t know which one, because they escape her whenever she tries to put them in words too short to bear the weight of their glances, their lips, their eyes).

“I know.” She’ll say. And he won’t die. He’ll love her and he won’t die. Not like all those other people who also loved her. Please don’t let him die. She’ll end the story before that, force in the end before it happens.

(“The resolution didn’t feel…I don’t know, organic? Like, I could tell what she meant to do, but somehow I don’t think it should have ended that abruptly. He should have died. It would've had a much bigger impact that way.”)


-


Some pages she’ll add in things they’ve said, things they’ve done. Not the kind of things they say every day, with near-monotonous regularity. Not about forever or eternity or death or the end of the world or oh god please just— or I can't think straight when youplease stay with me please— not things like that. Not the desperation, not the anger, not the love.

Just little mundane details about how he likes his coffee and how his brother’s favorite color is green. Or the time when she was ill in bed and they both made her more ill because they couldn’t decide on the flavor of the soup and made her a mixture of both their favorites. Or the time when they walked ahead and left her behind because they were too busy fighting over her to notice her. Or all the times they’ve sat and said nothing, because they always talk too much, try to say too much.

(“Boring. If I wanted to read about stupid shit that happen every day, I’d just live out my real life.”)



-



It'll be a postmodern epic. Her life, her entire life in hundreds and hundreds and thousands of pages. Because she lived, because people died so she could live. Because that has to mean something. Goddammit.

("It tries too hard, and well, you know, academically speaking, the postmodern world has no real epics.")



-



There will be sex, she decides. Pages and pages of his hand at her breast and his brother’s fingers inside her and they’ll fuck and they’ll make love and they’ll fucking make love till none of them can move.

“I love you,” she’ll say, breathless, her hair falling over her, entangled in their fingers, “I love you. I love you. Iloveyou. Iloveyou. I love you so, so—”

One of her boys will laugh softly, because that’s what he does and she’ll feel it because he’s inside her and his brother will kiss her and kiss her and kiss her and it will be like it was always meant to be. Like it should have been from that first day. Like it should always be. Not forever. Not forever, because forever’s such a long time. But maybe till some days before that. Maybe till the week before forever. She can make love to them till the week before forever.

("Too gratuitous. More in the realm of some lonely girls' fantasy wish-fulfillment than anything else, actually.")



-



It will end like this:

There are two brothers and they fight, and they live forever, for each other.

(“It’s a love story,” she’ll say when someone asks.)

 
 
 
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youcallitwinter: we pass just close enough to touchyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 06:08 pm (UTC)
I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER, BECAUSE SERIOUSLY, YOU HAVE MADE THE FIC WAY MORE THAN IT ACTUALLY IS. AND I HADN'T REALIZED HALF THESE THINGS TILL YOU POINTED THEM OUT TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST. And you put it all so beautifully, I actually gained a new perspective myself!

But seriously though, Elena usually writes herself and I just sort of type, so I didn't even realize how right you are about her. She isn't writing her story, she's writing the constructed version of her story. She's a completely unreliable narrator, and she's manipulating the text to her wishes. And I think that is a way she'd feel safe; if she gets to be the author of her own story, so she can change all those things she constantly fears. I really hope that the show explores her writing dreams that they mentioned in the beginning, a sort of Elena-thing, like drawing is for Tyler/Jeremy/Klaus.

Doppelgangerness with self-awareness. It's one of my favorite things

SELF-AWARE NARRATIVES ARE MY FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD REALLY. Exploration of protagonist privileges and the selection process for the construction of character and revelations, it all makes me really happy. And obv we're simpatico <333

Haha, I do tend to highly sexualize Elena, especially when it comes to OT3, because I can't imagine them not all being together; I MEAN, LOOK AT THEIR FACES (although Damon's in particular in this scene, always kills me, it's such a brilliant, expressive scene):



THEY OBV NEED TO BE TOGETHER. And the Salvatores especially, because I think, for Elena, THAT is the real eternal love story.
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(no subject) - youcallitwinter on March 24th, 2012 07:17 pm (UTC) (Expand)
swirlsofblueswirlsofblue on March 19th, 2012 07:40 pm (UTC)
This is SO wonderful. All the meaningfulness, conveyed so brilliantly. And all the lines are so awesome.

I would quote favourite lines, but I would have to quote the entire thing. This is such epic perfection.
youcallitwinter: you won't be seventeen foreveryoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:11 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much! I'm really glad it worked for you ♥
Shaitanah: bodyistne_pieklo on March 19th, 2012 08:18 pm (UTC)
This is just breathtakingly beautiful. And sad. T_T A brilliant idea to turn Elena's life into a story, and I absolutely love the reactions. <333
youcallitwinter: repeated image of the lovers destroyedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:14 am (UTC)
I think the Elena-as-a-writer thing they introduced in the beginning should really be explored! Thanks so much ♥
Éléonorevergoldung on March 19th, 2012 09:08 pm (UTC)
Beautiful. And so sad.

She thinks she’d like to be tragic more than she’d like to be alive, because she’s pretty much a fucking tragedy for everyone else in her life.
I want to shower her with love. And peace of mind.

And everyone will hate the girl because seriously, why does everyone seem to love her so much, it’s annoying.
Stop breaking my heart! This is so fucking depressing.

Or all the times they’ve sat and said nothing, because they always talk too much, try to say too much.
My favorite line. This is love when it comes to the bottom of it. When you're able to bear the silence.

Her resigned statement : she’s never been original. Her desperate wish for almost forever but never quite... The rushed resolution. A single plea : Because that has to mean something..
HOW CAN I DESCRIBE WHAT IT'S MAKING ME FEEL? I'm at a loss for words.

The sex. So loving. So peaceful. So balanced.

It's a love story. Regardless. Wether people understand it or not. Fuck, it's such a love story.

This fic hurts me in a good way.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 11:23 am (UTC)
It's a love story. Regardless. Wether people understand it or not. Fuck, it's such a love story.

I think that's an absolute wonderful way of putting it, because ultimately I think it is a love story. It's tragic and angst-ridden and conflicted and dysfunctional and possibly a lot more, but that doesn't take away from the fact that it's still about love (family, platonic, friendship, sexual, whatever), which is why I think Elena ultimately sees it as that. And it would continue to be so even if she weren't in the picture, because Stefan and Damon's story is a love story as well!

Thanks so much for the wonderful comment! <33
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Florencia: DEflorencia7 on March 19th, 2012 09:38 pm (UTC)
YOU ARE SO BRILLIANT YOU MAKE ME CRY

There are just no words NO WORDS to describe how amazing, how complete, breathtaking, ARTISTIC your writing is. You turn the world into a story & the story into a world. Reading your writing feels like touching the stars --- I am truly head over heels about every word that you have up there.

♥ ♥ ♥
youcallitwinter: just to waste my time with you.youcallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:17 am (UTC)
YOU ARE WAY TOO NICE TO ME, YOU KNOW THAT.

Seriously though, you make the story sound a lot better than it actually is, which doesn't make the story better, of course, but makes me feel good about myself, so thank you, haha ♥♥ And your comment is so much more poetic than anything I've written!
dillpickle: Robot Penispoppypickle on March 19th, 2012 09:55 pm (UTC)
I was wary of reading this because I didn't want to be spoiled for future stuff, but then I did AND I'M SO GLAD. I fucking love this. I love self-aware Elena. Someone was complaining to me the other day about how they felt like she was so generic, and I see where that argument comes from, but I don't think the character herself is weak or generic. I think she's strong and she takes risks and it's not her fault that two boys are in love with her and blah blah blah we're all tired of love triangles. So I love the agency and the sarcastic irony that you give her in this.

Well done.

Edited at 2012-03-19 09:56 pm (UTC)
youcallitwinter: sandbox loveyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:20 am (UTC)
I actually thought of you while writing, because I was wondering if it was spoilery in any way, and then decided that thankfully it wasn't :D But yes, I've seen those complaint around a lot, and I too can see where they come from, because it totally depends on how you interpret the text, really. So Elena who had a self-conscious narrative that she creates is my favorite basically. Thanks so much! ♥
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: TVD: Elena peekingbadboy_fangirl on March 19th, 2012 10:16 pm (UTC)
I was sort of nervous about the Damon/Stefan/Elena thing, but I should not have been. I should just trust that if you're writing it, you're going to slay me left, right, and center, and make me wonder why I've ever tried. For serious.

Just so beautiful, every little bit. And poor, poor Elena. As sorry as I feel for Stefan sometimes, and Damon all the time, it's really Elena we should feel sorry for. She's at the center of a battle that's gone on for so long and will go on for much longer than her lifetime, unless she turns, too. She's the one who deserves our sympathy.

Just:
youcallitwinter: repeated image of the lovers destroyedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:26 am (UTC)
YOU ARE SO ADORABLE. I seems to have written a lot of Elena/her boys in the past few times that I have written, and it turns out to be way more Elena than either of the Salvatores (unless I'm writing for Damon, in which it turns out to be more Stefan/Elena in the text and Damon/Elena in the subtext, because somehow he always feels S/E exists in the all-consuming love category, even when they themselves don't feel it).

I really do love writing Elena though, because I've seen people get mad at her because everyone seems to always cater to her, etc, and I always want to see it from her POV. Thanks so much! AND SHUT UP, YOU ARE SO INSANELY INCREDIBLE YOURSELF IN THE WRITING FIELD. ♥
most adorable zombie ever: TVD - Threesome - In the darkscorpiod1 on March 19th, 2012 10:40 pm (UTC)
OMG. WHAT IS EVEN THIS? WHAT IS THIS MAGNIFICENCE? HOW DO YOU WOOOOORDS. I CAN'T WITH ALL MY FEELINGS FOR THIS.

Their names starting with a ‘D’ and an ‘S’, because she’s not original, really, never has been. Look at her face.

OH BB ELENAAAA. SHE'S NEVER BEEN ORIGINAL :(

And everyone will hate the girl because seriously, why does everyone seem to love her so much, it’s annoying. “I’d die for you”, someone will say every two pages in, and someone will die for her every four pages in, and another girl somewhere will drop the book. “There’s no reason for why anything happens,” she’ll tell her friend, “it’s a lousy story”.

I CAAAAAAAAN'T. I WISH I HAD MORE COHERENT FEEDBACK, BUT I AM JUST "I CAAAAAN'T. MY FEEEELINGS. BB ELEEENAAA."

He’ll love her and he won’t die. Not like all those other people who also loved her. Please don’t let him die. She’ll end the story before that, force in the end before it happens.

(“The resolution didn’t feel…I don’t know, real? Like, I could tell what she meant to do, but somehow I don’t think it should have ended that abruptly. He should have died. It would have made a much bigger impact.”)


CRYING ;___; SHE'S FORCE THE ENDING BEFORE HE DIIIIES, ELENA. AND PEOPLE COMPLAINING HOW HE SHOULD HAVE DIED FOR MORE IMPACT AND I'M JUST DROWINING IN ELENA FEELS.

Because that has to mean something. Goddammit.

(" It tries too hard, and you know the postmodern world has no real epics.")


UGH BREAK MY HEART, WHY DON'T YOU. IT JUST HAS TO MEAN SOMETHING, EVERYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED TO HER (and the audience reacting negatively to it, my feels).

Not forever. Not forever, because forever’s such a long time. But maybe till some days before that. Maybe till the week before forever. She can make love to them till the week before forever.

GUH THE DESPERATION IN THIS. AND THE "IT'S JUST WISH FULFILLMENT" LINE AFTER. WHY IS THIS WHOLE THING SO UPSETTING? ;____;

There are two brothers and they fight, and they live forever, for each other.

(“It’s a love story”, she’ll say when someone asks.)


This is just beautiful. The whole thing is stunning but this ending is utterly perfect.
youcallitwinter: we pass just close enough to touchyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 05:53 pm (UTC)


HOW DO YOU EXIST THOUGH. YOU'RE VALIDATING MY DUBIOUS LIFE CHOICE OF WRITING OT3 FIC WHEN I SHOULD BE, Y'KNOW, LIVING, OR SOMETHING.

I AM GLAD YOU LIKED THE ENDING THO? Because seriously, the way I see it, they're much more a love story than they're tragic. Like, they're all tragic sure, but then they have that sort of desperate love which really isn't something you buy in the market. So in essentiality, it is a love story. [And for Elena, I think Stefan/Damon would be the ultimate love story, because I cannot much imagine my bb girl wanting to live forever and giving up everything she may have dreamed of.]

LOOK AT THE BEAUTIFUL,



HOW CAN THEY NOT BE.
catteo: [tvd] Elena BAMFcatteo on March 19th, 2012 10:52 pm (UTC)
This is perfection from beginning to end. I love the repetitions all the way through, from the fact that she's not original to the recurring theme of a tragic love story. The little asides that you have from the POV of someone watching a movie of Elena's life are fabulous.

Basically heartbreaking and perfect. And I love Elena's voice here. Amazing work.
youcallitwinter: tonight i think i'll walk aloneyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:29 am (UTC)
I don't even know how I manage a million repetitions in a story that's barely 1k! Lol, seriously though, I've got into the habit of framing fic in a particular way and I seriously need to get out of it. I'm so glad it worked for you here. Elena's view of herself and the fandom view of Elena is something I enjoy, because we already get what the other characters think of her within the show itself ♥
jane_wanderlustjane_wanderlust on March 19th, 2012 10:59 pm (UTC)
whoa

(Okay, so a Spongebob pic is probably the least accurate descriptive photo and RUDE fandom to assign to this comment, but the reaction they're all having is so damn EXACT to mine that it was just necessary.)

Because.

What. WHAT. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?

I hate this. I hate it and you and what. This isn't real. I hate every word and sentence if only because of how much I envy you and your insane talent and gorgeous style and mastery of prose and basically I hate it because of how much I love it? Because, I FUCKING LOVE THIS. Oh. My. Dear. God.

Bb, this is ridiculous.

In all honest seriousness, the fact that you're not famous (maybe you are...are you famous? SECRETLY?) for your writing is beyond mind-boggling for me.

Because like.

You aren't even fucking real.

(Superb.)

Fuck, I love you.
youcallitwinter: we pass just close enough to touchyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 11:09 am (UTC)


SCREW APPROPRIATE, THAT WAS THE BEST PICTURE THAT ANYONE COULD HAVE EVER USED. I mean, it's Spongebob, all arguments are invalid.

And can I just say I'm completely :D at the fact that you bothered to read my Stefan/Elena/Damon fic, since I know that none of them are particularly in your favorite list right now? THANK YOU BB. <33

Also, what, shut up, I know that you can write better than this and have the most gorgeous turns of phrases, so I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to be asking half the questions you have. :D

BUT I'M REALLY GLAD THIS WORKED FOR YOU, SINCE IT'S ELENA-CENTRIC AND ALL, HEE <33
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lokya2046lokya2046 on March 20th, 2012 12:25 am (UTC)
this is so good and so true about Elena.

Your writing is amazing, it is so poetic, almost like reading a poem.

And the insight on the story.

love it.

youcallitwinter: a kind of hushyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:31 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you thought it was in-character! That's pretty much the only thing I aim at in fic. And thanks so much! ♥
Ninjhisui_ryoshi on March 20th, 2012 02:51 am (UTC)
This is excellent. Several lines throughout it are just so brilliant. The last line is so true. I agree with much of the earlier sentiment...this creates feelings. Elena needs a hug.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:32 am (UTC)
Aww, that's really nice of you to say so! I think Elena's awareness of her own narrative is something that I love on-screen, and it's fun to explore in fic!
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youcallitwinter: just to waste my time with you.youcallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:36 am (UTC)
Wow, that's just very complimentary of you, thank you so much! I do find the ways in which fandom constructs Elena extremely fascinating to explore. I'm not even sure this qualifies as fic, haha.
Alexia Lisa Drake: Vampire Diaries - Trioalexia_drake on March 20th, 2012 04:17 am (UTC)
Interesting story, nicely done :D

It's mostly sad, but this made me smile:

Or the time when she was sick in bed and they both made her sicker because they couldn’t decide on the flavor of the soup and made her a mixture of both their favorites.
youcallitwinter: you won't be seventeen foreveryoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:36 am (UTC)
Haha, I think my mission should now be to write a happy or general Elena-fic, because I always seem to go off on the deep end of angst, whenever it comes to her. Thanks so much! :D
x5valex5vale on March 20th, 2012 08:23 am (UTC)
Brilliant. I love the writing, but what really fascinates me is the idea.

Perfect.
youcallitwinter: repeated image of the lovers destroyedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:37 am (UTC)
The prompt was what fascinated me and made me think of the structure! Thanks so much! ♥
brightstarmarabrightstarmara on March 20th, 2012 01:26 pm (UTC)
Holy crap. No, really. Holy. Crap. I love it when people work fandom critique into their fanfic and it work. I love this story. I love the way you tell her story and how you work the outside view into it.

Yes.
youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:39 am (UTC)
YOU ARE WAY TOO NICE TO ME :D But seriously, I love the different ways n which every single person in fandom seems to view Elena. And I think there'd be a huge divide in how characters like Damon/Stefan/Caroline/Bonnie see Elena and how Elena sees herself. Which is always fun to explore!
brightstarmarabrightstarmara on March 20th, 2012 01:38 pm (UTC)
Recced you here at my LJ.

YOU'VE GOT ME RECCING!!!
youcallitwinter: sandbox loveyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:40 am (UTC)
I know you're not as much into TVD fic, etc. as you were before and I am honored, really. Thanks!!
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waltzmatildah: [tvd] elena | if i could make it alrightwaltzmatildah on March 21st, 2012 09:00 am (UTC)
Oh, how I wish the actual writers had even HALF your insight...!! The self-awareness in this is only something I can dream about happening on the show at this stage.

Also, fabulous idea!! Seriously!

I fear this show is getting to the stage where the fic is better than the real thing. Or maybe it's just YOUR fic?!!

youcallitwinter: you won't be seventeen foreveryoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:43 am (UTC)
Oh, I LOVE that everyone has such disparate views on Elena and I've seen enough arguments to know that every single person has an excellent point to make. Especially since the show itself leaves so much ambiguity and room for interpretation in terms of character. I AM FLATTERED THAT YOU READ MY ELENA-CENTRIC FIC THOUGH, CONSIDERING SHE'S NOT YOUR FAVORITE AT ALL ATM :D Thanks so much! Haha, pretty sure your fic eclipses any real development in the actual show for the characters, especially Katherine, GUH.
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alottalove4ericalottalove4eric on March 21st, 2012 02:10 pm (UTC)
OMG this is beautiful. The story of Elena, I love your insight to her thoughts on her own life story. Your writing was superb and the ending was perfect. Loved every second of it. thankyou
youcallitwinter: repeated image of the lovers destroyedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:45 am (UTC)
I think Elena's views on Elena are pretty separate from the views of all the other characters, because she doesn't pedestalize herself, and I really enjoy writing that side of her. Thanks so much! <3
(Anonymous) on March 21st, 2012 04:06 pm (UTC)
This is the best piece of writing I have read for this particular fandom. Elena's awareness of her own narrative is wonderfully executed. As is the poetry in prose.
youcallitwinter: tonight i think i'll walk aloneyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:46 am (UTC)
Haha, I think I've been using 'Elena's awareness of her own narrative' everywhere, so I love that you put it like that. Thanks so much! <3
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youcallitwinter: but I keep them in a box under my bedyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:50 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad you bothered to read it even though the OT3 wasn't of your choice! But yeah, these fics usually turn out to be a whole lot more Elena than anything else, when I get down to it, haha. Thanks so much! <3
Crystal: tvd ⟷ damon; stefan; brotherspetitebelette on March 21st, 2012 06:18 pm (UTC)
Oh god I read this with my breath held or something because at the end I let out this terrible exhale full of PAIN AND TRAGEDY AND GUUUUUHHHHHH SOBS.

This is so so so perfect. This is so Elena. Her life is tragic, and this is how she'd tell it.
youcallitwinter: you won't be seventeen foreveryoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 10:53 am (UTC)
I READ THIS COMMENT IN PRETTY MUCH THE SAME WAY TBH, BECAUSE IT'S SO WONDERFUL. Elena being self-aware is my absolute favorite thing in the world. But, thanks so much, bro. <3
bellonablack on March 22nd, 2012 06:04 pm (UTC)
Well I love your mind. Pretty much, in all ways, because this, to me--I like that she told her own story even though it wasn't perfect because she had to, kind of. A tribute, and it was all about her anyway. So I like the self-revelation in writing for people to absolutely destroy and criticize.

(and weirdly I have thought about what fans would think of me if I was on a show--weirdly I admit this. I got terrible ratings, dammit haha)
youcallitwinter: we pass just close enough to touchyoucallitwinter on March 22nd, 2012 06:29 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much, really! In an odd sort of way, I actually think Elena would kind of know how her story would be received, because she views herself with the same critical gaze that the audience does. She's not special to herself, unlike as to all the other characters in the TVD-verse. I think she'd be more aligned with fandom's opinion of her as unnecessarily privileged.

(Hahaha, that is AMAZING, I'm pretty sure I'm going to think about it as well now. And shuuuup, I'm pretty sure you'd be loved on any show! You have all the right shipping choices :D)
(Anonymous) on March 24th, 2012 01:02 pm (UTC)
You stole my breath away
God, that was so heartbreaking, every word, every similie, every sentence made my heart race and I don't even ship Delena/Stelena to begin with but you are exceptionally talented and now I am at the verge of breaking into crocodile tears. It was flawless. Perfection personified.

Also, it's been so long since you wrote a Damon/Caroline fic, is there any chance we will get to read one from you anytime soon, what with the sesaon 3 coming to an end and all. Consider it a genuine request please and give it some thought.
youcallitwinter: a kind of hushyoucallitwinter on March 24th, 2012 07:20 pm (UTC)
Re: You stole my breath away
Reading a shippy fic of a ship you don't ship (I just wanted to use the word 'ship' a lot, obviously, haha) is difficult, and I generally tend not to do it, so thank you so much!

I would love to write more Caroline; I think her voice is just so much fun to capture. All the snark and the bitchiness and perfection in an otherwise angst-ridden universe! Damon/Caroline haven't really been interacting, so I haven't been inspired, but hopefully I will be sometime soon :)