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17 April 2012 @ 05:59 pm
fic [s] and things // once while climbing up the stairs, i met a man who wasn't there.  
+ You know what I am? The worst friend in the history of forever. You can defriend me. But it is ze graduations and impending apocalypse exams. Why can't all graduations be ala S3 Finale of Buffy? Because that would be epic.

+ And in the middle of it, I still watched Angel like it's a religion. And I've just finished it (and made a color-crazy icon post to boot as the icon for the post indicates, which I won't be able to do anymore because google is taking over the world Picnik is shutting down and that's what I used). And I cannot deal with it ending and I am inconsolable and disconsolate and all the fancy synonyms for WHY CAN'T I HAVE NICE THINGS FOREVER. (ILLYRIA, GOD-KING OF MY HEART. WESLEY, OMG, WESLEY DDDD:) 
+ Cordy/Angel, whom I was going to make a grand 'I HAVE A CANON SHIP BITCHES' post about turned out to be the most doomed ship of all doomed ships in the history of doomed shipdom. IT'S THE TITANIC IN 3D. How do these things even happen to me? I WAS SHIPPING FUNCTIONAL, YOU GUYS, I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT THIS ONE TIME. IS IT ME? AM I JUST A BAD PERSON OR SOMETHING?
+ Speaking of nice things that I can't have: I hard-ship Arya/Gendry in GOT. All law-abiders to the left. Kindly leave your shoes and morality at the door. I also ship Jon/Arya but we don't talk about that in polite company

+ I have all the icons, all the icons, because jane_wanderlust gifted me more icon space, along with more paid time for the graduation thing, and I cannot. I cannot even deal with that or thank her properly. Basically just fall at her feet and flail for all eternity. (I literally come back to stare at my userpics after every half an hour: IS THERE AN ICONICS ANONYMOUS SOMEWHERE?)


+ I wrote four fics for the comment ficathon thing when I should have been studying. But that is kind of what I do every single time my exams roll around so it's a ritual by now, basically. (You notice how I casually inserted the exam mention because I need an excuse for the quality of the fic? /slacker five) BUT FOR FOUR DIFFERENT FANDOMS, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD PUT THAT ON MY RESUME.




title: flash forward to december
rating: pg-13
pairing: jeff/annie
warnings: at-graduation. (even though the prompt was post, which I obv read wrong /rebel)
baller_annie's prompt: I go back to December all the time.



She thinks she wants to have his children by the fourth drink.

It's stupid and cliché and conforms to the idea of a universal motherhood that all those patricidal bastards try to impose on women. Or is it patri-something-else, because she may be drunk, but she's still a feminist, she knows this stuff. She's a drunk feminist. She's Britta.

Which might be a good thing in the context, because god knows, he’s had sex with Britta. Which puts her higher on the what-are-the-chances-in-hell-Jeff-Winger-will-remember-you-beyond-graduation scale that had brought about the drinking in the first place. Shirley is like his super-religious, super-gossipy bff or something, which bags her a place. And who in the entire college is likely to forget Troy and Abed and Troybed, which is a separate entity on its own and totally makes sure they're safe. Pierce is…Pierce, it’d be impossible to forget him even if they tried (tried very, very hard actually).

Which leaves, well, her.

And it actually leaves her, as in, in that very metaphorical way which will be literalized when he leaves her after graduation, and then she’ll be some girl he'll vaguely recall as the super annoying classmate who made sure all his credits were genuine and bothered him a lot about being a good person. She’ll be the girl whose name sounded like it had a double ‘e’ in it somewhere (was it Ashlee? Or Aimee?) and he would spend approximately two point five seconds trying to recall it before giving up and going back to some hot blonde in his arms. (In her mind they’re always blonde, because of cultural stereotypes and Britta and ‘gentlemen prefer blondes’ and Britta and western models of beauty and Britta).

Or maybe, worse, she’ll be the kid who followed him around and had this thing for him and was mostly just embarrassing in her intensity, and twenty years later, at some reunion, they’ll accidentally run into each other and he’ll remind her of the horrifically obvious crush she had on him and how she thought kisses on stage, on the road, in the kitchen were supposed to mean something and they’ll laugh about it. Or at least he’ll laugh and she’ll pretend and he’ll never know the difference.

That’s two more shots down and she feels like she can fly which she knows is a complete lie, but it doesn’t matter because damn, she can fly. And if she can fly, she can totally tell Jeff Winger to have sex with her. (Because then she won’t be the wallflower. That girl who ended up in Community college because of a pill problem, whose name he wouldn’t be able to recall. Then she’ll be the girl he slept with on his graduation night and that’s someone worth remembering).

And then he’s at her side, and she can’t think anymore. Which is an interesting phenomena and there should be scientific experimentation conducted on her to find out what it is about Jeff Winger that makes her feel this way, because she’s pretty sure no one in the whole world has ever felt that way before, which might be of interest to the scientific community.

“Ease up on the alcohol, kid,” he says (and she is not the kid, okay. She is not safe. She is not who he always tries to make her), “you don’t want to spend your graduation locked up in the bathroom with an overactive gag reflex, do you?”

She wants to spend her graduation with Jeff Winger inside her, but it makes her blush and she can’t say it anymore. Even though it would be kind of sexy to say, if she can get past the red face and the stuttering. Maybe he'd have slept with her if she'd just said it, because she's freaking old now and she can do sexy and she can talk about that thing without calling it 'doing it'. Because she's old now. “I’m fine.”

“You look more than fine actually, you look like you’re going to die of alcohol poisoning and enjoy every moment of it.”

“You’re not my dad, okay,” she snaps, and godammit, she always does this. Always reminds him that he’s older and could have anyone he wanted and that she’s young enough to still compare men to her dad, and—

“I think we’ve effectively established that in three years, yeah?” he raises his eyebrow, and it’s signature Winger and it frustrates her a little and it flusters her a lot more.

And then he’s looking at her lips and suddenly it’s a whole lot more than it was a moment ago. And then he’s kissing her and it’s not— it’s just so— she can’t even—

(And it’s stupid and very twenty and she’s obviously read way too many trashy romance novels, but she thinks she’s going to be the girl whom he doesn’t remember, wouldn’t need to remember, because she’s always going to be around too much for him to ever forget in the first place).









title:  you'll never know what it means (but you'll know how it feels)
rating: r
pairing: damon/elena
warnings: #random (hashtag random is my default for all d/e fics ever)
upupa_epops's prompt: I love you never felt like any blessing.



He loves too much and she’s loved too much and they make perfect lovers.

The first time is exactly what you think it’d be. Drunken recriminations and too much screaming and suddenly they’re standing one point three seven feet away and then there isn’t any space to pass air through and she drowns somewhere between his words and his mouth. She has Stefan in her eyes and her skin and her breaths and his brother inside her.

She fucks him and he makes love to her and that’s their tragedy in two acts.

-x-

The seventh time, it’s him in her room, and her clothes at his feet and he really needs to stop coming in like this.

He’s down on his knees in front of her and he has been since such a long, long time and she’s sorry, she really is. Sorry because he always loves the same kind of girl with the same kind of face and this girl with her face never seems to love him back. She’ll tell him to go for someone else, some nice girl somewhere who hasn’t broken his heart in seven ways since Sunday, but she’s too selfish for that. Always has been too selfish for that.

She’ll be heavy in his arms tonight and he’ll take it as an affirmation of something else, something more and she won’t correct him.

-x-

The twenty first time they’ve had another grand session of declarations of love that lasts forever (his) and silences (hers).

And when he looks like her that, she won’t tell him this. She’ll never say anything, won’t tell him that she doesn’t know, god Damon, it’s complicated. She’ll stay silent, let him imagine his name on her lips, leave Stefan out of her eyes, and keep Damon there because there’s this moment when she thinks he might leave her and there’s this moment in which she can’t breathe, and they are the same moment.

And was it worth the wait, she won’t ask, because then he might realize she never was.

-x-

By the sixty ninth time, she doesn’t need excuses.

She doesn’t need alcohol, she doesn’t need grief, she doesn’t need the reminder of his brother rejecting her again and again and again. Doesn’t need anything more than that second where his eyes darken and he turns away from her and doesn’t allow to see his eyes change. That instant where his teeth graze her lips and draw blood, but not quite, and she’s ridiculously proud because he’s always the one in control while his brother gets lost and she wants to do this to him.

And because he won’t leave her, he won’t ever leave her, Stefan, she says, oh god, Stefan.

He stays anyway.

-x-

(The hundredth and fifth time she makes love to him.)









title:  follow the lights that line the streets
rating: pg-13
pairing: sawyer/juliet (mentions of jack/juliet, sawyer/kate)
warnings: i probably just broke up your otp in this, yeah? set in s5.
krilymcc's prompt: Our memories are attics in those houses on the hill.


She counts lifetimes in days and seconds in years and she only starts keeping time again when Kate is back on the Island and Sawyer’s eyes stay on her a little too long for it to be coincidence. (“Don’t mistake coincidence for fate” Jack would tell her, but these days Jack spends his time trying not to be a hero, so maybe he doesn't say things like that anymore).

“We should invite them to dinner”, she says, because what do you know, she’s a masochist. Possibly certified.

“Invite who for whatnow?” he’s reading something and has his glasses on and she thinks she likes him best like this (and then he’ll takes off his glasses and go inside to get water and she’ll think she likes him best like this).

“Kate,” she says, and draws out the name because she’s looking for a reaction, because apparently she’s the kind of person who does things like these, “and Jack and the rest of them.”

“Now why didn’t I think of that before,” he smiles his sarcastic, you’re-an-idiot smile and it makes her cramp inside with something close to tenderness. “You livin’ up to the stereotype of your hair color, Blondie? The low-key-profile-we-don't-know-who-you-are thing going over your pretty fair head?”

She turns away and doesn’t let him see her eyes, because it’s three years later and he can read her now and it’s a little unfair and it’s annoying and it’s terrifying, “we could always tell Horace, we were trying to bond with the new arrivals. He wants all of them to feel at home; you know that.” (She can’t remember what her sister’s eyes used to look like sometimes. There’s a photograph imprinted in her mind and she remembers that every time she thinks of her sister, and sometimes she tries to make the mouth move, recall things Rachel used to say, and the picture blurs and she’s left with nothing.)

"No," he says, but he's not so much engrossed in the book anymore and she thinks she likes him best like this.

“It just seems like the right thing to do. They came back, James. Risked everything, left everything and came back for you.”

He looks up then, and she thinks she’s said too much and she thinks she can’t possibly ever say enough. “Boo-fucking-hoo. Didn’t tell them to come back, don’t want them here, have no interest in their drama and wish they could just go back.”

“You don’t mean that,” she swallows the yes, please, James, I need to— stay okay, I need you to stay with – I can see the look in your eyes when she – “you know they did it for you. For us.”

And there are all these moments (now that all she’s doing is counting time, every second is just that much closer to the next and every moment passing before she’s had a chance to register it came at all) when she wonders if someone had said, “Juliet's still on the Island. We need to save Juliet,” if someone had remembered her. Not that it matters. She isn’t one of them. Never has been.

He’s standing now and she knows the downward curve of his mouth because she can’t read him yet but she’s touched it often enough for it to be flesh memory. “They did it because they couldn’t be big damn heroes in the real world so they had to take one more plunge into the life that made them more than they ever were. Well guess what, Pinocchio, you’re a real boy now, and the world ain’t working that way no more.”

She thinks she may have made him bitter. She’d think she made him care, but she doesn’t think that because Kate had done that part before she came in. It was already who he was before the flashes, and time-warp and the loneliness and the days of talking that turned into nights of staying quiet and all those things they never write about in books because it’s made of too purple a prose to make good literature.

"You're just being contrary," she says because I want to see how you act around her-- do you love her-- she came back for you-- never seem to make it past the back of her throat where they sit and choke her.

“It’s not like I don’t know what this is about, sweetheart,” this is something she knows: he uses endearments like weapons and sometimes they cut and sometimes they soothe where they cut. And sometimes he’s the one hiding the marks.

“Do you, James.” because confrontations? That’s something they do. When he has Kate in his eyes and home at his tongue and she’s furious because she has nothing but him, they do this. Without saying this is what they’re doing, but they do this. They were real back then, back when reality wasn’t quite so real like it is now.

“Now that the Doctor’s back to don his Romeo mantle, you’re thinking you needn’t waste any more time than the three years you’ve already let go by, yeah? Sorry to disappoint you, darling, I ain’t gonna step aside for the grand love story. You want the epic romance, we’ll make love before dinner and leave the dirty plates in the sink till morning and it’ll be more epic than the Doc could ever give you with a lifetime of heroism and brooding and tragedy.”

And there’s a split second as long as three years and then she’s laughing. Laughing because they’ve been lost so long, laughing because they’ve been so hard trying to get home, laughing because there was never anywhere to go at all.

 “James,” she says and smiles up at him, and smiles and smiles and smiles, “kiss me.”

And he's looking at her strangely, like he does when he thinks that she’s more patient than doctor, and then his mouth turns upwards and she can’t read him, but she does remember the feel of it, so maybe all the words are already mapped out on her skin for leisure reading, “you got it, Blondie.”










title: for i have measured out my life with coffee spoons
rating: pg-13
pairing: buffy (/spike, /dawn, /angel, /apocalypses)
warnings: set in season six, so...yeah, 'issues' is the polite word.
moirariordan's prompt: I feel the earth move.


She’s saved the world sixty five point four three times (okay so there was that one time with Adam where the Scooby Gang might have contributed around point five seven – and she’s kind of being generous really— in the world saving business, but it isn’t like she was totally out of the scene there).

Not that she’s keeping count or anything.

-x-

She thinks someone should write a book.

Not the Watcher’s Diaries. Not records that will only ever be read by some British guy in a stuffy suit with a stiff upper-lip. Not records which will tell everyone who bothers to know that she died twice, and that she once fell ‘in love’ with a vampire (‘in love’ within quotes because it’s a record and she doesn’t know if they have that word in the Basic Guide to Slayerisms or if it’s blasphemy for a Slayer to mention the word because it’s not a synonym for ‘duty’ or ‘destiny’ or whatever the cool kids call it nowdays).

Not records with the dates and the Joyce Summers died on— Dawn Summers was inserted into the fabric of reality on—Buffy Summers came back to life on— not that stuff. Not about the life and times of Slayer Number 104-whatever-the-hell-42343699432. But like a real, proper book. The interesting kinds in the aisles that Dawn drags her through, with the dark mysterious covers and blood dripping out of half-eaten apples, which are cliché and symbolic and romantic all at once.

And it’ll be titled Buffy. Not something like Buffy the Slayer of Forces of Darkness or Buffy the Vampire Slayer or something. Because that’s too mundane. That’s every single day of her life in one title and she doesn’t want to be the kind of girl whose entire life can be compressed into four words.

So maybe, like, Buffy the GirlBuffy at Age Sixteen and Her First True LoveBuffy and the Amazing Adventures of the Self-Titled Scooby GangBuffy the Skank and Her Bleached Blond British LoverBuffy the Daughter and the Five Stages of GriefThe Endless Shenanigans of the Summers Sisters. Something about those moments that slip through the cracks in the everyday of being heroic and averting apocalypses and things.

Because she thinks those are the ones that might be forgotten someday. (She remembers saving the world a lot, but she thinks those are the ones she might forget.)

(She thinks when that book is written she'll keep a copy in her desk to remind her. Just in case.)

-x-

She hopes she has enough time to rename the Endless Shenanigans to Travelling Sisterhood of the Communication Gap.

“I’m old enough to decide this stuff on my own, Buffy!”

“The fact that you need to state that kind of implies that you may not be, Dawnie.”

“Stop calling me that,” her sister is nearly in tears, “you think you can forever categorize me under the ‘kid sis’ label and never really bother till you get the chance to refuse me something.”

“Dawni…Dawn, I—”

“And everyone thinks you’re like, a cool, older sister that they would like to have. That is, everyone who doesn’t think you’re a freak. Which is everyone who actually has a cool, older sibling who went to high school with you. Everybody is going to be there. Everybody. I’ve already said I would go, Buffy.”

There’s a hammering at the back of her skull that resembles the hammering of her heart all those times Angel was around. There may be some poetry lost in the metaphor but god, she misses Angel. She doesn’t miss Angel when it’s Spike above her and around her and all over, but that’s neither here nor there.

“I told you it’s too dangerous, especially at that time of the night, with the possibility of an impending apocalypse and—”

“Screw the apocalypse,” Dawn is actually in tears now and she’s suddenly so very, very tired, “there’s always an apocalypse. There’s always going to be an apocalypse. And if I can’t live because of that, then how is it any better than dying in the stupid freaking apocalypse anyway.”

And honestly, it makes her stop for a second because she hasn’t thought about it like that. Maybe she was too busy actually being dead in the last stupid freaking apocalypse to carpe diem it. Saving The World is like a mission statement or a job or a calling or destiny or something, she’s hazy on that part. But it’s something she’s kind of good at and they don’t pay her for it, so it probably gets her heaven cred. And she wants to go back. She wants to go back so, so badly.

(And because she’s not stupid she knows she can’t. Not after S—everything. Not when the only thing to bring her pleasure these days is something as removed from raindrops and roses as she will be from heaven the next time she grandly sacrifices herself or accidentally falls off a cliff or something. She’s pretty sure she lost the metaphor again, but there’s poetic justice somewhere in there for sure.)

“Mom would have let me go,” her sister says with quiet triumph, like she can’t believe that argument won’t win her the case even with a jury comprised of her neo-nazi sister, “she always let me go. Even when she found out about the Slayage and that the world was a badder, horribler place than it had always seemed. She still let me go because she knew how to live.”

You only know how to die.

And she wants to say something ugly then. Something about yeah well, she knew how to live but she’s dead now, so your point is moot. Or something uglier about how the girl in front of her had never known what mom would do because she had never been there to know what mom would do. And mom, mom had been real. Mom had been too real and too overprotective and cared too much and she didn’t get mellower with the second child because there was no second child.

She bites her tongue then, swallows the ugliness. The blood tastes real enough. Maybe someday she'll let S…omeone confirm it for her.

Dawn goes anyway, and she thinks she's done with the world because it was never worth saving in the first place. It’s a sort of habit with her, she thinks, and she can break it. Because habits, those can be broken. Unlike memories of blinding light that doesn't blind and peace that doesn’t fit into the word she uses for it.

-x-

(That night she saves the world again.

Which brings it to sixty six point four three or maybe sixty six point four two, because it's not like she's keeping count or anything).


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waltzmatildah: [got] arya | little birdwaltzmatildah on April 17th, 2012 01:05 pm (UTC)
I don't have the scissors (I have no idea why) and everyone keeps posting WOE IS THE SCISSORS entries and I don't know whether to be pleased about my lack of said scissors (maybe lj thinks I'm smarter than the average bear?! pfft) or just plain left out.

Tell me how to feel.

Also, YAY for jane_wanderlust. For now and for always...
youcallitwinter: got - familyyoucallitwinter on April 17th, 2012 01:18 pm (UTC)
YOU HAVE AN ARYA ICON? MAN, I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW YOU WERE WATCHING GOT!! (I'm really out of it, aren't I? D:) And lololol, you should be proud, LJ obv thinks you have more than two grey cells to rub together, unlike the rest of us, hee.

Arya is the queen of my heart forever, fierce bamf that she is. <3

AND UGH, YES, HOW IS jane_wanderlust so epic, I am not worthy D:
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fangirl_101: annie unrequitedfangirl_101 on April 17th, 2012 02:47 pm (UTC)
Jeff/Annie one is beautiful--loved it, so intense!
youcallitwinter: community - j/a - queen of heartsyoucallitwinter on April 17th, 2012 03:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, I'm glad you liked it! :D
Maeve: TVD: Cuddlemarble_rose on April 17th, 2012 03:50 pm (UTC)
I loved all of these! I love your insight into all the characters. My favorites were the Jeff/Annie (ship of my heart!) and Damon/Elena ones. There was something so fragile and heartbreaking about Damon and Elena in this, something that perfectly mirrors their relationship on the show. And while it hurt in all the best ways, the last line left such a huge smile on my face! Because...we're getting there.
youcallitwinter: tvd - d/e - my last confessionyoucallitwinter on April 17th, 2012 05:31 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! Jeff/Annie is just so adorkable, I love writing them because I can totally take a break from the unrelenting angst that is any and all TVD ships, haha. I'm glad the characterization worked for you, because that's pretty much all I aim for tbh. And I'm pretty sure Damon and Elena are definitely getting there :D
Frances: Angel - Lilah/Wesgoldy_dollar on April 17th, 2012 04:51 pm (UTC)
HI YOU. I'm glad you are alive and also catching up on Angel is a valid reason to hibernate from the rest of the world.

I don't have time to read your fics now because I have an exam in a bit but I know they are excellent. :DD
youcallitwinter: the girl in the mirroryoucallitwinter on April 17th, 2012 05:33 pm (UTC)
LOOK AT THE WES/LILAH ICON. Man, that relationship [...or something] was beyond glorious. I honestly love that the show developed characters like that.

BEST OF LUCK <33 I sympathize with the exam situation completely rn D:
Andie: good morning spuffynaughtynyx88 on April 17th, 2012 07:53 pm (UTC)
Yippee-Skippee yahoo fantastic!
youcallitwinter: btvs - s/b - feel the heatyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 04:03 pm (UTC)
Haha, thank you so much! :D (and would you like me to add you back? I usually tend to ask this, just in case you're just here for the fic, which is totally fine as well!)
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Lizzie: game of thrones|my forest lovexx_pinkstar on April 17th, 2012 10:38 pm (UTC)
I hard-ship Arya/Gendry in GOT. All law-abiders to the left. Kindly leave your shoes and morality at the door.



GO TO MY LAST POST, JUST GO AND SEE HOW SOULMATEY WE ARE
youcallitwinter: got - sansa - in lifeyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 04:05 pm (UTC)
GO TO MY LAST POST, JUST GO AND SEE HOW SOULMATEY WE ARE



I JUST DID AND WE OBV ARE DESTROYING ALL LAWS OF PHYSICS BY EXISTING AS TWO DIFF PEOPLE.
dancing till the world ends: buffy: faith messed up my bedlynnenne on April 18th, 2012 02:05 am (UTC)
I don't watch the other two shows, but the BtVS and TVD fics are excellent.
youcallitwinter: tvd - caroline - barsyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 04:08 pm (UTC)
Thank you! First time at any sort of BtVS fic (since I just saw the show recently) so I appreciate it :)
automatic door: annie peeking through fingersautomaticdoor on April 18th, 2012 04:14 am (UTC)
I love love love your Buffy and Jeff/Annie ones!! ♥ The Jeff/Annie one--oh god, I've been there. I'm just going to be that annoying one from the background, I worry, on the eve of my own graduation (from *law school*, you never get over it).
youcallitwinter: community - annie - girl with the gunyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 05:17 pm (UTC)
Oh, that's really nice of you to say, thank you so much! I tend to just wallow in angst in fic, and I think Jeff/Annie there is my neurotic, insecure, happy place, which I just adore. :D And I just recently had my college graduation and everyone seemed to have the fear of being forgotten somewhere down the line (although, even though this is the first time I've talked to you, I can't imagine you being the annoying one at all :D)
dillpickle: Annie/Jeff Communitypoppypickle on April 18th, 2012 04:49 am (UTC)
(In her mind they’re always blonde, because of cultural stereotypes and Britta and ‘gentlemen prefer blondes’ and Britta and western models of beauty and Britta).

THIS. SENTENCE. IS. PERFECTION.

(And it’s stupid and very twenty and she’s obviously read way too many trashy romance novels, but she thinks she’s going to be the girl whom he doesn’t remember, wouldn’t need to remember, because she’s always going to be around too much for him to ever forget in the first place).

I love this so much. Seriously, I couldn't ask for anything more perfect. I adore how you write Jeff/Annie.
youcallitwinter: community - ot3 - our last song togetheryoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:36 pm (UTC)
THANK YOU BB <3 Annie's Britta-related insecurities just make me, 'oh, Annie'.

Jeff/Annie are totally my functionally dysfunctional ship, unlike everything else in the universe that I ship which is relentless angst and the 'we can't be together's. These two are just so GUH and happy making, basically :D
ever_neutral: ats; illyria ~ aren't we allever_neutral on April 18th, 2012 08:03 am (UTC)
LOL the new cut tag symbol business. Sometimes LJ is the most adorable.

OMG THE Angel FINALE/ENDING WAS SO GOOD THOUGH. SO. FUCKING. GOOD. DO YOU APPRECIATE?

I WAS SHIPPING FUNCTIONAL, YOU GUYS, I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT THIS ONE TIME.

Heh. It's funny you say that, because I was really into Cordy/Angel when it was ~functional, but the moment it became ~angsty I… stopped caring? Very strange. I just don't think that ships like Cordy/Angel need to have world-ending angst, lol.

Who doesn't ship Arya/Gendry tbh.

Buffy the Skank and Her Bleached Blond British Lover.

Dead.

She doesn’t miss Angel when it’s Spike above her and around her and all over, but that’s neither here nor there.

sljv;lkvjv lksjvlksjvds

You only know how to die.

I CAN'T.

Something about yeah well, she knew how to live but she’s dead now, so your point is moot… Mom had been too real and too overprotective and cared too much and she didn’t get mellower with the second child because there was no second child.

PERFECTION

The blood tastes real enough. Maybe someday she'll let S…omeone confirm it for her.

YOU NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP

in conclusion, hi how are you
youcallitwinter: ats - d/d - and the bibleyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 09:32 pm (UTC)
LOL the new cut tag symbol business. Sometimes LJ is the most adorable.

Except now it seems to have reverted back to the old system, LOLOLOL THIS SITE.

MG THE Angel FINALE/ENDING WAS SO GOOD THOUGH. SO. FUCKING. GOOD. DO YOU APPRECIATE?

DUDE, I CANNOT. I CANNOT. HOW WAS IT THAT EPIC. Wesley's death and Illyria's role-playing, ALL MY CREYS. Even Lorne leaving the gang made so much sense. And just the very, very last bit, oh my god, there cannot be a more perfect ending to a show that has dealt with all these problematic questions of heroism. I know I'm supposed to consider the comics canon, but I don't want to, because honestly that was it. The end, in a manner of speaking D:

I just don't think that ships like Cordy/Angel need to have world-ending angst, lol.

Honestly, I do believe Cordelia had the oddest character assassination that I've seen in quite a while, and to take a character you've developed over six or seven seasons and just make her disappear, idk, it makes no sense to me, frankly. I can't figure out if the last bit of S4 was just because of Charisma's pregnancy or it was actually ~planned or something. And I don't even resent Connor/Cordelia! Like, that's not my issue at all. Give me all these shocking, random twists but MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF IT. Take it to its conclusion, deconstruct it, give me something to work on DD:

I think Angel/Cordy are extraordinarily doomed at all possible levels, because the show itself seemed to simultaneously valorize them and negate them, which, you know, what even. Because it's Cordelia who gives Angel "the mission" back, he can barely function w/o her. And yet, it's still mostly about Buffy for him? Like Buffy/Angel feels canon, Spike/Buffy feels canon, but Cordy/Angel is treated like an interlude or something where she's barely mentioned all, so after a while you're just like 'but, what on earth, did I just imagine the whole thing up'? Even her death wasn't dealt with. And honestly, Cordy was like one of my absolute favorite characters so I was more than a little DDD: And fandom too is very heavily B/A, which again, I adore them, but it suited them at where they were, and after that it's all Cordy for me.

I adore Cordy/Angel because that's the most growth, most realistic growth I've ever seen onscreen in a relationship.(AND the hottest scenes together, my god, the chemistry. I actually enjoyed all of Angel's jealousy re: Connor a lot. /ninth circle of hell).

Not to mention he lost his soul from just the thought of sleeping with her, so.

ALSO, THEIR FACES, GUH /ALL ARGUMENTS ARE INVALID



What I absolutely, insanely adore about both BtVS and AtS is how well they present the whole concept of moving on. Especially considering that these shows deal so much with immortality and eternity. IMO, they're ALL given that freedom to move on, there's no fixed idea of The One. Buffy may have been Angel's first love (or, y'know, Darla, FLAWLESS GODDESS), but she won't be his last. He can be with Nina after Cordelia, and it's all good. Ditto Buffy/her guys including Spike/Buffy re: Spike. It really appeals to me.

ARYA/GENDRY IS A VALID LIFE CHOICE.

Hee, I love how you picked up like the three lines which had to do with Spike/Buffy :D God, they were so glorious in S6. ALL THE DYSFUNCTION. /what are my shipping choices.

OH MY GOD, I'M SORRY, JUST IGNORE THIS, I CAN'T BELIEVE I WROTE SO MUCH WHEN I HAVE SIX PAPERS TO SUBMIT BY NEXT WEEK DDD: I'm just dying to talk, as is obvious. :s
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Rebcake: btvs_buffy_dawnrebcake on April 18th, 2012 03:33 pm (UTC)
Ooo! That Buffy one of the failing to be a firm faux parent (and also at life) is terrific!
youcallitwinter: stock - mt - slow seductionyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, first attempt at Buffy (or any Jossverse really), so I'm really glad you like it!
Gabby: nian kissgabby227 on April 18th, 2012 03:43 pm (UTC)
Hey! I haven't seen you around in a while! How are you? I was thinking about you the other day as I'm working on a new Damon/Caroline fic (I don't think I'll ever be able to write Damon/Caroline without thinking about how you got me into the fandom, lol).

That Damon/Elena fic is just heartbreaking, but it's amazing as always. I always love your fics!
youcallitwinter: tvd - elena - i will remember youyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:43 pm (UTC)
omg, hello :D It has been long, and I've missed you terribly! Although technically I haven't been on at all recently :s Exams and graduation and what-to-do-with-your-life-next kind of stuff, ugh. Oooh, new Damon/Caroline; I was so disappointed they haven't had much interaction lately; or even Stefan/Caroline for that matter, but fic just makes up :D

Aww, thank you!!
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ThyCrownlessPrincessisarn on April 18th, 2012 09:18 pm (UTC)
Don't have words. Really.
youcallitwinter: ats - c/a - playactingyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:40 pm (UTC)
...I hope that's a good thing, haha
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Florencia: DE (Kiss) (3x10)florencia7 on April 18th, 2012 09:44 pm (UTC)
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I swear I always intend to be coherent when commenting on your fics but it is just NOT POSSIBLE. There is Dostoyevsky, there is Shakespeare, and THERE IS YOU. I am dead serious.

"She fucks him and he makes love to her and that’s their tragedy in two acts." - This is such an !amazing! sentence.

And the parenthesis at the end! Like it's not big deal, like it's inevitable - & everything in between.

I love the entire structure of this fiction & how it draws upon Elena's continuous non-answering mode & develops it all the way into the future, into the truth.

I loved ALL of the stories in this post. Even if I don't know the fandom your writing brings the characters SO CLOSE. Your writing feels so perfect & complete. Every word, every comma & italics - everything is where it is for a reason & creates millions of thoughts, evokes so many emotions.

& Please change your default DE # from random to UTTER & ABSOLUTE BRILLIANCE THAT BLINDS THE READERS.

I love your writing SO MUCH ♥ ♥ ♥
youcallitwinter: lost - s/b - love i get so lost sometimeyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 10:16 pm (UTC)



YOU GIVE ME WAY TOO MUCH CREDIT. I mean honestly, if I die because my ego overinflated and self-combusted, I am going to blame you. :P

I love that Elena somehow can't seem to let Damon go, despite the fact that she never lets him come close either. It's like he's actually the only constant in her life and she needs him, even though she constantly reiterates that she doesn't want him. (which, you know, this episode today is going to destroy, hee)

Aww, you read all the fics, despite the fandoms? That's incredibly sweet! And honestly, what you get from the fic is mostly what you give to it, so pretty sure that all the thoughts are yours and you're kind of projecting your own intelligence onto me.

YOU ARE THE ACTUAL BEST. THANK YOU SO MUCH! <333
goldenusagi: Other - illyriagoldenusagi on April 19th, 2012 05:31 am (UTC)
ILLYRIA.
youcallitwinter: youcallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:45 pm (UTC)
OMG, LOOK AT THAT BAMFY ICON RIGHT THERE. I love it <333 But seriously though; I'd heard about this character and then she didn't appear at all even after half of S5 was over and I couldn't figure how a character who barely comes could be that visible in fandom: NOW I DON'T QUESTION, OF COURSE. My god, I adore her. (Although I bet she's indifferent to my adoration, haha)
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feministyogini: Elena journalfeministyogini on April 19th, 2012 05:52 am (UTC)
I haven't read fanfic in quite a while but your DE story was well worth the wait. Delicious
youcallitwinter: tvd - ot3 - togetheryoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 08:47 pm (UTC)
I haven't read anything recently either! And yet I seem to keep writing for ficathons :s Thank you so much! :D
Kat Sua ★: [GoT] Arya | where love is loststarianprincess on April 19th, 2012 11:53 am (UTC)
This post is full of win, bb. FULL OF UTTER WIN AND I AM FOREVER LOVING YOU.

+ Speaking of nice things that I can't have: I hard-ship Arya/Gendry in GOT. All law-abiders to the left. Kindly leave your shoes and morality at the door.

*weep* There was an interview and Gendry's actor says they probably won't happen. But they should. And they're practically canon, so they count, right? But I have a bunch of other ships to worry about, so I shouldn't worry about them, too. But I can't help itttt. You have a daughter. I have a son. Oh god, I can't help it. Also, randomly, I need to find G/A icons.

I LOVE YOUR D/E FIC. Mostly, I felt terrible for Damon but you write them so well. Your fic should be our bible, because it makes sense. It shouldn't because it is so heartbreakingly sad, but it does. So I went ahead and read your Sawyer/Juliet fic and remembered how much I miss Lost. Damn you for being so awesomely epic. Words just cannot. *clings to forever*
youcallitwinter: got - a/g - someone like youyoucallitwinter on April 19th, 2012 10:34 pm (UTC)
WELL OUR FORBIDDEN LOVE IS MUTUAL OFC.

Oh man, I bet it's also because of the real age difference between the actors (14//24 or something?) which also makes it awkward; I hate it when my ship doesn't happen because of RL prosaic reasons D: (And I ship all the inappropriate ships, so yeah, that's like all the time).

You have a daughter. I have a son.

I don't actually remember where this is from, but I'M READY TO FLAIL ALL THE SAME.

*raises hand* I have a g/a icon!!

Aww, thank youuu, it is a common tendency in fic I write for the guy to go through hell because I always choose the high maintenance women to write about, because I adore them, haha. And omg, you read the Sawyer/Juliet? There should be an award, because really I'm pretty sure no one ships it (I ship their functionality, but then I ship everything so I don't count). :D
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Alexia Lisa Drake: TV - LOST - Favoritealexia_drake on April 20th, 2012 03:24 am (UTC)
I literally come back to stare at my userpics after every half an hour: IS THERE AN ICONICS ANONYMOUS SOMEWHERE?)

LOL I did that too when I first bought my userpics packages ! And I'm glad that someone got you paid time and more userpics spaces :D

there isn’t any space to pass air through and she drowns somewhere between his words and his mouth.

I love that line.

and there’s this moment in which she can’t breathe

OMG there was a scene like that in tonight's episode of TVD !!! (3x19)

I've never read any fanfics for the fandom LOST, even if I loved the whole series. Sawyer is my favorite, and I shipped him with Kate and then with Juliet. So, I'll read it.

“We should invite them to dinner”, she says, because what do you know, she’s a masochist. Possibly certified.

LOL Funny :D

“Boo-fucking-hoo. Didn’t tell them to come back, don’t want them here, have no interest in their drama and wish they could just go back.”

Haha, now I regret never reading fics with Sawyer ! I can totally hear him say that. They both seems very in character to me, nicely done.

he uses endearments like weapons and sometimes they cut and sometimes they soothe where they cut. And sometimes he’s the one hiding the marks.

That's beautiful, very poetic. Now I feel like watching Fanvids about them... lol
youcallitwinter: tvd - c/e - all you want is everythingyoucallitwinter on April 21st, 2012 03:27 pm (UTC)
Hahahah, I KNOW, RIGHT? It's such a disease! Now I keep spending my time editing icons to upload when I really should be working for my upcoming exams D: And then someday I shall have to go back to 15, and idek how I'll manage, haha

OMG there was a scene like that in tonight's episode of TVD !!! (3x19)

Ooh, I just saw the episode, and I know what scene you mean! I thought the hand-holding part was incredibly hot, maybe more so than the kiss even!

I've never read any LOST fics as well, because I ship the most obscure ship, which is Jack/Claire and I'm guessing there's practically no fic for them. But Sawyer/anyone is good for me, since he is such a stunning character!

And thank you so much, glad you thought it was in-character because Sawyer is so well developed in canon that it's just really scary to write him! D:

LOL, now you've made me want to watch fanvids as well :P
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jujukittychickjujukittychick on April 20th, 2012 04:39 am (UTC)
don't know about the other fics and stuff (good luck on graduation btw) but the buffy fic was really awesome :D
youcallitwinter: btvs - b/d - sistersyoucallitwinter on April 21st, 2012 03:11 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, graduation is scary fun, really, haha. And I'm so glad you liked the BtVS fic; first time trying it!
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Bone_Dry1013bone_dry1013 on April 20th, 2012 05:34 pm (UTC)
Only read the Buffy one (since that's the only fandom of the ones you wrote I'm familiar with) and oh, I loved it!

Favorite lines: "Travelling Sisterhood of the Communication Gap"
and
" "She still let me go because she knew how to live.” - You only know how to die. "

Great stuff. :D
youcallitwinter: btvs - buffy - halfyoucallitwinter on April 21st, 2012 03:18 pm (UTC)
I may actually be the last person in the world to see BtVS, since I just saw it this last December and fell madly in love with it ofc. I've been dying to write fic for it, but I'm like ten years too late to fandom, haha, so I'm glad you liked it :)
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timeofchangetimeofchange on April 22nd, 2012 08:38 pm (UTC)
These are amazing. You really got inside of Buffy's head. I'm not familiar with the other characters, but the writing is so compelling that it doesn't really matter.
youcallitwinter: btvs - spike - rockstaryoucallitwinter on April 22nd, 2012 09:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I've been dying to explore BtVS and AtS characters since I started watching the shows last December, but everything seems to have been written already, so I was hesitant trying it out, but so glad it worked for you!
gemma: Boning Bad Boyscranmers on April 22nd, 2012 09:01 pm (UTC)
+ I am defriending you, obviously.

+ Do you need to have seen 'Buffy' to watch 'Angel'? I am actually starting one of the two this week, so...

+ YOUR FICS ARE THE VERY BEST.

Obviously I LOVED the D/E fic for shallow, shallow shippy reasons. But 'for i have measured out my life with coffee spoon' was MY FAVOURITE OF ALL!!!! I rarely fall in love with fics when i don't know the fandom so it's obviously particularly amazing! :D
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on April 22nd, 2012 09:28 pm (UTC)
+ I MAY KILL MYSELF. And haunt you on LJ in the afterlife ofc.

+ I don't want to spoil you!! But yes, you should definitely see Buffy first. And omg, cannot even deal with how excited I am at the thought that you're going to start watching. PARADIGMATIC SHOWS OF THE GENRE TBH. Everything that comes after is a reaction. /nazi

+ THEY SHARE THAT IN COMMON WITH YOU THEN /cheesy

Hee, you liked the D/E for shippy reasons, as in because they were horrific and destructive and this is why you don't ship them? AND LISTEN, STOP READING BTVS FICS, I DO NOT WANT TO SPOIL YOU. But first time trying that, so I'm glad you liked it :DD
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all these hearts made of plasticenemeriad on May 16th, 2012 01:36 pm (UTC)
the annie/jeff story was just... immaculate. and elena and damon you had nailed. faaaaaaaaab.
youcallitwinteryoucallitwinter on June 12th, 2012 11:14 am (UTC)
How have I not replied D: But thank you so much, I'm so glad you liked them!
this our chameleon: btvs buffy herojustwolf on March 9th, 2013 09:06 pm (UTC)
Again, hugely enjoyed your BtVS fic. I loved it as a study of Buffy's character: I thought you handled her voice brilliantly, particularly as her season 6 self. I liked how humour still ran through her pain/bitterness, and how despite her anger with Dawn she didn't allow herself to say the really cruel things. I thought the idea of the books and the comparison between Buffy's conversation with Dawn and her musing that she wanted someone to know it wasn't all about apocalypses worked very well. Wonderfully characterisation!