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15 June 2011 @ 02:16 am
fic: the secret's in the telling  




title:
the secret's in the telling
rating: r
pairing: boone/shannon
summary: it starts like this.
a/n: I just started watching LOST, and I'm like on the fifteenth episode, I'm pretty sure no one even ships this anymore.
disclaimer: I own nothing, including Dashboard Confessional's song where the title is from [Also, that song is totally about incest]


It starts like this: they’re fighting.

That’s pretty much a given, considering it’s them, but this is old and new all at once.

She’s screaming at him because he paid off the eleventeen hundred and seventy third (yeah, he’s definitely lost count here) guy she’d been dating, that’s old. And he’s looking at her mouth and pretending to himself he’s not, that’s older.

And then she’s still screaming and he’s still looking and he’s not pretending any more.

That’s new.

-

“You know what I think?” she half turns, her unfastened bra catching the edge of the chair, the rays of the sun darkening her skin to poetry.

“Don’t complete that sentence,” he flips a page, “you and thinking is already an overstatement.”

“I think,” she smiles, the pool water sparkles in her eyes, “we could stay like this forever.”

-

He’s thought about it, because he’s a guy and she has breasts. In the ‘if hell freezes over’, ‘fuck that’s so weird’ sort of way.

And then she takes to wearing his shirts at night and nothing else and he catches glimpses of her through her half open door and suddenly it’s less weird and more his hand on his cock and her name at the back of his throat.

-

Her eighteenth birthday, he’s in New York, getting a hang of the business (mostly wearing suits, pretending he knows what the hell he's doing, whatever).

She calls him at some ungodly hour, drunk; slurring her words, “I hate you, you jackass.”

“I love you too,” he says exaggeratedly, pulls the cord, tries to keep inflections out of his voice.

“Where’s my birthday gift?”

“Didn’t you get it, it was the…”

“Yeah, yeah,” she says off-handedly, “I got that.” stops, “Mel said her gift of choice would be you in wrapping paper. And nothing else.”

He doesn’t remember, “who’s Mel?”

“Melissa Harbor,” she giggles, “green eyes, dark hair, perky tits, ass like whoa.”

He swallows, those words on her lips hotter than the girl they’re describing, “I don’t know her.”

He can almost feel her rolling her eyes, “you’re such a loser. Anyway, I told Melissa she can’t have you.”

“Why?”

“You’re mine, I don’t share.”

-

His twenty-first birthday, she gets married.

He’s pretty sure it’s a huge ‘fuck you, you freak’ from the universe.

-

“Boone, I…”

“I don’t know what…”

“He didn’t turn up, and it’s…”

“We’re somewhere around…”

“I can’t stand the sound of…”

“Please take me home, I just…”

It doesn’t matter how many times she changes the script, his line remains the same.

“Tell me where you are, I’ll come get you.”

-

 
“You’ve always been in love with me. I’ve always known it.”

He’s counting breaths in heartbeats and he’s pretty sure his heart stopped beating somewhere around her lips and his skin.

-

He’s inside her twenty three fractions of eternity.

-

She sits in a chair across the bed, bitter, sharp, killing him with distance.

“God,” she says, “I just fucked my brother.”

God, he doesn’t say, I just made love to my sister.

(He’s pretty sure that’s their tragedy in two acts).

-

After she’s stopped screaming, she turns to him; wide-eyed, innocent, all of eleven, “we’re lost.”

He looks out to the sea, the debris from the plane cutting into his skin, he always has been.

-

He watches her with Sayid, laughing, playful, in love.

It ends like this: it doesn’t.

-


 
 
 
the female ghost of tom joad: lost boone/shannonjanie_tangerine on June 14th, 2011 09:36 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, this was awesome! (and hey, good Boone fic is always welcome with yours truly. ;) I really liked the style here, it was sparse but it really worked. And I liked how you worked with glimpses and still managed to get the story through. Also their dialogue is totally spot on and I really like how you write him. It's a pretty awesome voice. :) And I loved the starting/ending lines, they really worked for this. I loved it!
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 14th, 2011 09:48 pm (UTC)
Haha, this is so short because I'm all like 'NEW FANDOM, YOU'RE SCARY' D: I'm a Vampire Diaries fan so as much as I pretended to watch LOST because it'a a huge part of pop-culture, I'm pretty sure the real (shallower) reason was Ian. But now I'm genuinely interested! And the Boone/Shannon dynamic is too interesting to not explore, although I'm dreading him dying end first season. Thanks so much! :)
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squeakyboots: Shannonsqueakyboots on June 14th, 2011 09:53 pm (UTC)
This is wonderful (& people do still totally ship them)! So many great lines here but this was my favorite: those words on her lips hotter than the girl they’re describing... Kudos!
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 14th, 2011 10:04 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad to hear that- I'm always late to every ship!party and I'm pretty sure I usually arrive when everyone's left the building D: Thanks so much!
Rogue: [TVD] Damon delightsvampire_rogue on June 14th, 2011 10:28 pm (UTC)
I shipped them so hard when I first watched Lost. (I probably still do if I rewatch - which you not have me wanting to do.) There were so many awesome lines (or, more, groups of lines) that were awesome. Great job! :D
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 14th, 2011 10:37 pm (UTC)
I know, I'm shipping them so hard right now, and it's sad because I know they don't get there eventually (I NEED TO STOP WITH THE SPOILERS). Thank you so much, so glad this worked for you!
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Gabby: niangabby227 on June 14th, 2011 10:29 pm (UTC)
omg, this story is just...sad. And I totally still ship Lost, I'm in the middle of a series re-watch (I'm in season 3 right now) and I could just talk about this show forever. I never realized how much I miss that freakin' show until I actually go back and watch it.

And Ian in Lost was total awesomeness. I am just pissed that he didn't make it past season 1. And I hate the way he died, it makes me cry every time.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 14th, 2011 10:38 pm (UTC)
Ooh, I so didn't know you were into LOST, but it's darn interesting right now (even if I am just mid first season!) And I'm just already feeling sad about Boone, although I don't know how he dies or anything, it just makes me feel like S1 should stretch forever!
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sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: Phoebe Joey New Infobadboy_fangirl on June 15th, 2011 01:16 am (UTC)
See, even with your beautiful writing, I'm still all: SHANNON IS SUCH A BITCH!

Seriously.

I just hate anyone hurting my Ian-bb in any form.

Have you ever seen Young Americans?
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 07:06 am (UTC)
Haha, I get that- I did spend half the time she was on screen thinking- "wow, she's a bitch", but I love Boone's reaction to her, and how well Ian portrays it, like the whole helplessness and how much he wants her, it's awesome. I haven't see that! That's another Ian!show, right?
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sunsetdawn20: innocentsunsetdawn20 on June 15th, 2011 01:28 am (UTC)
This was gorgeous! Brilliant snippets of their life together. I think I died a little at "He’s inside her twenty three fractions of eternity."

Also, hello fellow new Lost-lover. I started watching about two weeks ago and am close to finishing S2. I really didn't expect to fall for this so hard. Weird, eh?
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 07:08 am (UTC)
Ah, I honestly thought I was the only person in the whole world watching it right now! I knew it was touted as being brilliant, but I'm pretty sure I started watching it because of Ian. However now I'm legit invested! Thanks so much :)
fashionista1988fashionista1988 on June 15th, 2011 03:53 am (UTC)
Awww how sweet!

I've been watching lost since it premiered about 5-6 years ago...

Welcome to the fanclub! The ride gets very VERY interesting!
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 07:10 am (UTC)
I've been watching lost since it premiered about 5-6 years ago

Like all normal people, yes ;) I'm kind of sad I missed all the wonderful discussions and theories that the show must have created, but then I get to see them all at once, instead of dying of suspense, so that's there too!
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youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 07:14 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you :D I really know nothing about them, but I just have this urge to write lots of fic about them, lol.

I never can resist the angsty, doomed ones.
Word. And especially if it involves incest (and a guy who looks like Ian), I'll be all over it. (LIKE WHAT, DIDN'T I GET PROPER MEDICAL CARE AT BIRTH?)

I'm weirded out/fascinated by how much Ian looks like Chris Evans in that screencap.
I didn't notice it, till you mentioned it, but now I definitely can't unnotice it, lol. Ian's prettier though, he's so pretty in LOST!
waltzmatildah: omg: ian ruleswaltzmatildah on June 15th, 2011 12:22 pm (UTC)
After she’s stopped screaming, she looks at him, wide-eyed, innocent, all of eleven, “we’re lost.”

He looks out to the sea, the debris from the plane cutting into his skin, he always has been.


Oh, perfect words are freaking perfect. Also, I've never seen Lost, but I know enough to know that this is incredible! SERIOUSLY INCREDIBLE.

I love the way you've set it out. The fragments. SO GOOD!

youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
I am so flattered you took the time to read this even though you haven't seen LOST (I just started myself, which is why this is so short and fragmented; I'm so uncertain on characterization! D:)

YOU'RE BEING NICE TO ME, ILY <3
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jane_wanderlustjane_wanderlust on June 15th, 2011 01:19 pm (UTC)
I just started watching a new show, too.
It's taken over my existence.

Anyway, always heard great things about Lost.
Should I watch it?

What are your thoughts, oh wise one?
I shall read this regardless of knowing what is going on.
I love your words soooo.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 06:26 pm (UTC)
God, it SUCKS when that happens, especially when there are like a million and one other things you're supposed to be doing, but instead you're buying a first class ticket to hell shipping incestuous couples.

As far as I've seen (which is not very) LOST is amazing, you should watch it if you have the time! They've got a lot of characters but they're slowly developing every one of them very distinctly, which is awesome. And aww, thank youu for even bothering to think you'd like to read w/o context! <3
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Lizzie: otp for life tbhxx_pinkstar on June 15th, 2011 03:24 pm (UTC)
Wonderful fic! I will always love Boone/Shannon idgaf :)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 15th, 2011 06:28 pm (UTC)
It's been pretty long since the first season actually aired and I'm SO GLAD the ship isn't dead, because I just got into it! Thanks :)
Rusty Dog's Mama: shoone2zeldabel on June 16th, 2011 01:31 am (UTC)
Shoone is my all-time favorite ship! Thanks for this fic!
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 16th, 2011 07:56 am (UTC)
I JUST saw the episode in which Boone dies, and I'm the depths of despair right now. But thanks so much, I'm glad you liked it! :)
Shaitanah: blueistne_pieklo on June 16th, 2011 07:43 pm (UTC)
Oh God, this is gut-wrenching. T_T I didn't even ship them back when I watched Lost, but this story is just so brilliant. (And it ttly makes me remember how much I loved Lost back in its first seasons and how much I miss Boone.)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 16th, 2011 08:26 pm (UTC)
I AM SO LATE TO THE PARTY. I just ship them because I always end up shipping the incestuous couple, trufax (and I want Boone to get what he wants). Boone just died, and I feel so horrible, even though I was well aware it was going to happen. I'm going to miss him D: Thanks!
нσω ∂σ уσυ нσℓ∂ α мσση вєαм ιη уσυʀ нαη∂?: island ♔ bs; my sweetest sinfiddlings on June 18th, 2011 03:50 am (UTC)
Okay, so. I stumbled upon your journal via the friending meme on damon_elena, and I'm thinking "She looks pretty cool, let's journal!stalk." And then I proceed to see a fic with the same title as one I just wrote the other day, which piques my interest, so I look, and lo and behold, IT'S BOONE/SHANNON. Which makes my night so much, you have no idea.

a/n: I just started watching LOST, and I'm like on the fifteenth episode, I'm pretty sure no one even ships this anymore.

I DO, I DO! Of course, I just watched LOST for the first time this year. But still.

disclaimer: I own nothing, including Dashboard Confessional's song where the title is from [Also, that song is totally about incest]

LMFAO. That fic I wrote the other day with this title/inspired by this song? Justin/Alex from Wizards of Waverly Place. So, clearly, you are right.

ANYWAY. I'm rambly tonight, apparently? Onto your fic, which was the purpose of this comment, I swear...

It was fabulous. No, really. The style was flawless and gorgeous; I loved it so much. And you had the characterizations down really well. I wish it had been longer, in a way, because I'm selfish, and I wanted it to go on and on, but it worked really well the way it was. I really hope you write more for them! :)
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 18th, 2011 08:31 am (UTC)
Okay, so you ship Damon/Elena, Boone/Shannon, AND Alex/Justin? Uh, okay, where have you been hiding all my life? (…wow, that wasn’t creepy at all). But honestly, those are such unrelated ships that it makes me happy someone ships them all- especially J/A (which could also stand for Jeff/Annie!), which was totally my incest ship after Derek/Casey in Life With Derek. I don’t think I love anything as much as snarky teenage girls with put-upon hot older brothers. I always ship the incestuous couple- excuse me while I attend a call from the ninth circle of hell.

The song has lines like “our act of defiance/we keep this secret in our blood”, “We hide within our veins/the things that keep us bound to one another”, INCEST, I TELL YOU.

I would love a link for your Justin/Alex (WITH THE SAME TITLE, what are the chances?) I write so much for them, but for me, reading is always more fun. I’m away for a couple of days (with no internet DD:) but it’s always awesome to come back to fic!
Thanks so much, I probably will write more for them, I am a horribly obsessive person. And, we should be friends. I didn’t say that, the universe did, trufax.

(Also, I massively approve of hot S/B icon, god, that moment).
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flaky_artist: LOST claireflaky_artist on June 22nd, 2011 11:53 pm (UTC)
Guhh, this is so good. The characterization is spot-on. I've never actively shipped them, but I've always appreciated a well-written Boone/Shannon fic.

So many good lines, but I think I love this one the best:

And then she’s still screaming and he’s still looking at her mouth and he’s not pretending any more.
That’s new.
youcallitwinter: hell yeah.youcallitwinter on June 23rd, 2011 06:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much :D I actively shipped them before knowing anything about the show- I always go for the incestuous ship (THERAPY, I NEED IT) and when it's Ian playing the older step-brother? Sold.