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04 May 2012 @ 04:03 am
fic: the blower's daughter  



title: the blower's daughter
rating: hard r
pairing: elena/damon 
excerpt: sometimes she says his name.
warnings: I hate the world rn, which as everyone knows is the best time to write d/e.
a/n: written for upupa_epops and petitebelette because they wanted d/e porn and you know, who am i to refuse? andcranmers, ofc I'll reply asap because barney stinson hath spoken ;)
disclaimer: disclaimed. image source

*goes back to assignments and hating the world* i write fic in my precious spare hour, what the fuck is wrong with me?



He touches the small mole on the skin over her hip-bone, and thinks it's odd that it's possibly always been there; just below the waistband of her jeans, just out of the line of his hungry sight. It intrigues him.

"Katherine," she says suddenly, or maybe she's been speaking all this while and he's been so caught up in his worship, he hasn't even been listening, "does she look like me...like this?" naked

He thinks for a while, tries to recreate Katherine's image in his head, which, when he's actually thinking again, he'll think is ridiculous, because, hello. But, in this moment, he can't seem to remember her face.

"No." he says definitively, after a few moments. Nobody can possibly look like her.

*
It starts like this:









(He tries to pin it down, he really does, but he loses count whenever it's her skin under his groping hands and every single time is just the first, and every single time can be the last.)

*
Sometimes she says his name, sometimes she says his brother's.

He doesn't mind either way, he realizes, because he's concentrating on the sound; the broken spaces between each letter of whoever's name it is this time, the hitched breath which makes the 'a' inaudible, the stifled cry in the second syllable of either name, the clenching of her teeth over the last 'n'.

there stefan, please. damon, that's so. don't stop. stay this way forever. i need to. stefan. damon. stefandamonstefdamohgod.

Days like these he’s sure he wants to sink his teeth in her, draw out all color, break her neck maybe, keep her with him forever. He settles for his tongue inside her. It feels just as good.

*

Okay, she says, okay.

They’re not symbolic or anything, he wants to shrug. She lets him shove his fingers inside her every morning afternoon night, but give the girl some flowers and she freaks.

She’s still staring down, like she can’t believe them, and seriously, okay, so he’s pathetic, how is this a surprise?

They’re…nice, she says finally, and smiles up at him, and she’s lying and she thinks this is more than she’s willing to give and he thinks he fell in love over.

*

The twenty-fifth time he falls in love with her (he doesn’t actually keep count, he makes up numbers in his head each time because whatever, he may be pathetic, but he’s still not Stefan.) she’s not even doing anything, and it sort of goes against all laws of nature. And hey, he goes against all laws of nature, so it totally works out somehow.

She’s sitting on her window-sill and writing in her diary, and he doesn't snatch it, he doesn’t think he wants to rip her clothes off, he doesn’t say anything dirty (these days she doesn’t blush and pretend she didn't hear, these days she listens, sometimes does what he’s suggesting and it’s the hottest experience of his life), he thinks something like that green shirt brings out the color in her eyes.

He should probably go home and write in a diary now, because, oh fuck, he is Stefan.

*

 “Leave them on” he says, and she stops, her fingers still splayed across the strap of those ridiculously high heels.

She leaves them on.

When he wakes up, she’s sitting there in those same heels and okay, so it’s not his dreams literally altering his reality, it’s just that he fell asleep after the Town Event from Hell (they’re all from hell, how does this town not get that), which she ran away from, he remembers and told him to stay away, Damon, okay.

He stayed away, she didn’t. If he was keeping score, this would be a point for him. (He is keeping score; it’s his three to her thirty thousand five hundred and forty seven).

“Leave them on,” he says, sometime later and she looks up startled; she’s different from his dream because her hair isn’t falling over her breasts just so. And man, his dreams so need a reality-check, because this is better, which is just sad.

“What,” she says, and she heard, he knows, so now he knows the answer.

“Leave them on”, he says again, because sometimes he does things he doesn’t have to do.

“It sounds…weirdly kinky,” she says, and scrunches her face in thought and he doesn’t want the heels anymore, he just wants her face scrunched up in thought. He always wants exactly who she is at whichever moment she is it. That’s the oddest sentence he’s ever made up in his head.

*

It ends like this:

This one he knows. She goes to college and realizes that sleeping with vampires isn’t a viable career option and has shockingly low market value.

She grows older, he doesn’t.

She realizes—

god, she says, and he memorizes the inflection in all her letters, the arch of her back on his sheets, the look in her eyes, the curve of her breast, the dip of her hand, the sound of her heartbeat, what is with the brooding, come back here, okay.

Every single time can be the last, he knows, and every single time is just the first.

It starts like this:

*



 
 
 
upupa_epops: [tvd] Damon/Elena pillar handsupupa_epops on May 3rd, 2012 10:47 pm (UTC)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

You can't. This is not allowed. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I FORBID THIS PERFECTION HOW ARE YOU EVEN REAL AND DAMON IS SO PATHETIC OMG OMG OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
youcallitwinter: ats - illyria - god kingyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:20 am (UTC)


I LIKE HOW MANY NOOOOOOOO'S YOU MANAGED IN TWO SENTENCES. I'M GOING TO TAKE THAT AS A COMPLIMENT, EVEN IF I SHOULDN'T /so there.
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youcallitwinter: tvd - caroline - smileyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:29 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much! On both counts :D And that gif is adorable, even though I don't know where it's from!

Crystal: tvd ⟷ damon; elena; in the darkpetitebelette on May 3rd, 2012 11:05 pm (UTC)
I had such a little bitch face reading this. I am Damon Salvatore and you are Elena Gilbert; here is my heart. Take it and tear it apart more because I'LL LIKE IT.
youcallitwinter: tvd - d/e - my last confessionyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:33 am (UTC)
Best comment in the history of forever ofc. THANK YOU, I'LL GET DOWN TO THE HEART TEARING ASAP. Or maybe the sexual tension thing. That's good too /nods

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gemma: TVD; Too much information {Elena}cranmers on May 3rd, 2012 11:57 pm (UTC)
No need to reply when you're writing porn.

Porn takes priority any time.

P.S Excellent porn is excellent! ;)
youcallitwinter: btvs - buffy - things we now knowyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:35 am (UTC)
I had the worst experience yesterday when all my deadlines were changed to about a WEEK earlier. brb still hating the world and dying.

Thank youuu <3 (You read D/E porn-type-thing, who are you even :P)
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dillpickle: Parks and Rec WAFFLEpoppypickle on May 4th, 2012 12:13 am (UTC)
I can't read this now because I'm at work but I am fully caught up with TVD, and I FELT LIKE YOU NEEDED TO KNOW THAT. So excited to read this when I get home!
youcallitwinter: tvd - s/c - lie to meyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:36 am (UTC)
I TOTALLY DID NEED TO KNOW THAT ACTUALLY. And omg, excite, TVD been totally strange the past few episodes though, everything's happening all at once and nobody's exactly sure WHAT is happening. D:
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Noelle: TVD - Damon/Elena kissspuffy_noelle on May 4th, 2012 12:21 am (UTC)
I love how your Damon/Elena is always heartbreakingly PERFECT and BEAUTIFUL!! Please feel free to spend all your free hours writing fic :D
youcallitwinter: tonight i think i'll walk aloneyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:38 am (UTC)
Hee, I'm always willing to do the worst possible thing in any time I have D: But also, you flatter me, sir, thank you so much! :D
shipperjunkie: Damon/Elena Neck Smoochiesshipperjunkie on May 4th, 2012 01:46 am (UTC)
Oh man all these feels, how can you do this, what!

So very good.
youcallitwinter: tvd - katherine - my coloryoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:39 am (UTC)
Haha, because I'm the worst person ever. ALSO THE ONE WITH ABSOLUTELY NO WILL POWER :s Thank you so much! :D
Ninj: Hydehisui_ryoshi on May 4th, 2012 02:23 am (UTC)
Yay! DE porn. Excellently done. Elena does really stomp all over Damon's heart. Just excellent character voices.

Re-posted due to comment fail the first time.
youcallitwinter: hp - draco - maybe you'll remember meyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:43 am (UTC)
Haha, I have no will-power obv D: I love looking at Elena from Damon's POV, I always find that so fascinating. Thanks so much :D
bellonablack on May 4th, 2012 03:19 am (UTC)
I really love how you captured their cyclical nature. I mean. Really. That's so it for me.
youcallitwinter: ats - ot4 - at the beginningyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 06:41 am (UTC)
I think its safe to say that that's totally true, because they seem to always come back to where they started any couple of episodes down. Haha, thank you! <3
ever_neutral: tvd; d/e ~ in suspensionever_neutral on May 4th, 2012 08:42 am (UTC)
I hate the world rn, which as everyone knows is the best time to write d/e.

lmfao. yep. D/E is a ship for people who hate the world. It is known.

Sometimes she says his name, sometimes she says his brother's.

YOU ALWAYS DO THIS, DON'T YOU. :(

She lets him shove his fingers inside her every morning afternoon night, but give the girl some flowers and she freaks.

THIS IS HOW IT WOULD BE THOUGH. (Stay tuned for canon.)

(these days she doesn’t blush and pretend she didn’t hear, these days she listens, sometimes does what he’s suggesting and it’s the hottest experience of his life)

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF- THIS IS HOW IT WOULD BE.

He stayed away, she didn’t. If he was keeping score, this would be a point for him. (He is keeping score; it’s his three to her thirty thousand five hundred and forty seven).

This is disgustingly true of them. It's all a game and the point is just to keep playing, isn't it, fools.

“It sounds…weirdly kinky,” she says, and scrunches her face in thought and he doesn’t want the heels anymore, he just wants her face scrunched up in thought. He always wants exactly who she is at whichever moment she is it.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. WHY WOULD YOU WRITE SUCH A THING. WHY WOULD YOU DO IT.

In conclusion, this fic is the type of disgusting I associate only with you. Even the structure of this is disgusting. THE BEGINNING IS ALWAYS THE ENDING AND THE ENDING THE BEGINNING. MY KIIIIIIIIIIIDS. brb jumping off a bridge.
youcallitwinter: community - annie - girl with the gunyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 09:40 pm (UTC)
GTFO WITH YOUR REVIEWS. I'M NOT CRYING, IT'S BEEN RAINING ON MY FACE.

lmfao. yep. D/E is a ship for people who hate the world. It is known.

+1 for eternity.

t's all a game and the point is just to keep playing, isn't it, fools.

Yeah, pretty sure it's game-set-match to Elena, and Damon's like; okay, best of 4924513209490.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. WHY WOULD YOU WRITE SUCH A THING. WHY WOULD YOU DO IT.

BECAUSE I HATE THE WORLD OF COURSE, IT'S BEEN BURDENING ME WITH FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS IN A THIRD WORLD COUNTRY WHICH IS JUST BASELY UNFAIR.

Even the structure of this is disgusting. THE BEGINNING IS ALWAYS THE ENDING AND THE ENDING THE BEGINNING.

Pretty sure my obsession with structure reached the point of 'embarrassing' twenty miles back. Also *hides*, I DO always do this, somehow I can't seem to do it any other way D: #unoriginal

/jumps after you
unoshotunoshot on May 4th, 2012 06:16 pm (UTC)
Oh, you know I adore you and all your writings. Elena and her maybes and her still not deciding even after she's decided; Damon and his not caring because he has as much of her as he's ever going to get and that's a lot more than he thought he'd have. The push and the pull and the poetics and also this: sleeping with vampires isn’t a viable career option and has shockingly low market value.

Right? P.S. no way is Miss Gilbert getting out of this season alive.
youcallitwinter: tvd - caroline - the line starts with meyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 09:35 pm (UTC)
OH LOOK IT'S YOU.

I want to be you, honestly, with the will-power; I NEED TO PASS MY EXAMS AND GRADUATE, but as is inevitable, I'm posting more than ever D:

Thank you, you, stop being epic with comments and writing me mini metas because yes, those are exactly my favorite things about both Damon and Elena and this:

his not caring because he has as much of her as he's ever going to get and that's a lot more than he thought he'd have.

PERFECT DESCRIPTION IS PERFECT TBH.

(Oh my god, I actually haven't considered the Elena-as-a-vampire option AT ALL, and now suddenly everyone's talking about it, and it's starting to make sense: I mean, killing Evilaric --he was meant to be evil, just look at that perfect name-mesh--is only possible if Elena dies. OH MAN, NOW I HAVE TO FIGURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS).
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sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: Kirk punch facebadboy_fangirl on May 4th, 2012 06:21 pm (UTC)
AUGH.

That is all.
youcallitwinter: repeated image of the lovers destroyedyoucallitwinter on May 4th, 2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
Basically:



/cheesy
Azmiri Sultana Mridulmridul777 on May 5th, 2012 07:18 pm (UTC)
come here you!
Come here girl

You deserve these for this awesome piece you wrote....





I LOVE HOW ABSTRACT YOUR WORKS ARE....!!

And after a tremendous fill of "50 shades of Grey" and it's INTENSE and TOO ROMANTIC and TOO DEEP everything, this is JUST what I needed.... Ian Somerhalder and his possibility to play the main male lead of the movie version of this book, persuaded me to read the book series... but it's like a coal mine, once you get in.. GOD HELP YOU!! it is good, but it can be a little too wussy, over dramatic/melodramatic, and the relationships might seem a little parasitic or toxic...

Anywho... this thing that you wrote here was cool.... :)
And honey assignments suck BIG TIME.... I have no life because of this friggin assignments and exams... and there's nothing "f-ing" wrong with you... just that you write awesome stuff for awesome people.. ;)
Florenciaflorencia7 on May 5th, 2012 08:02 pm (UTC)
This is perfect & amazing & EVERY DE READER'S DREAM ♥ ♥ Your writing is SO amazing. It is not only amazing on the words level - it is amazing at the level of what the story conveys, what it means. It's amazing how the story is guessing the readers subconscious half-thoughts, how it is predicting its own interpretations... I really don't know how to explain it properly but let me just emphasize that I ADORE your style & that you are brilliant
youcallitwinter: hp - ot3 - hugyoucallitwinter on May 7th, 2012 03:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, you are much too adorable :DD I'm pretty sure, you're the reason I now have an ego bigger than my own house! Also, your comments make me feel a lot smarter than I actually am, hee. Seriously though, I think it's your reading that gets more out off the fic than my writing. But thank you so much, always! ♥♥
want. take. have.: bloodstreamghostrunner7 on May 6th, 2012 01:32 am (UTC)
He should probably go home and write in a diary now, because, oh fuck, he is Stefan.

fuck.
youcallitwinter: you're extraordinaryyoucallitwinter on May 7th, 2012 03:33 pm (UTC)
Haha, I hope that's a good 'fuck' (...which just sounds wrong), but also I love your icon!