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07 April 2013 @ 11:27 pm
[fic] they don't make morning after pills for this  
If you thought I was kidding about the ten million Veronica Mars drafts, WELL YOU WERE WRONG OBVIOUSLY. This is insane, because I was into Logan!fic today, and I had some 3000 lines of that written, when I was about to write a line and thought "wait, that suits Veronica more", and then I started simultaneously started writing VERONICA fic (which is crazy, because she terrifies me and I can't imagine writing her, flawless goddess, etc.) and the rest is history this fic. The excerpt from We Were Emergencies below is what I prompted for Marta at her prompt table, and is just gorgeously Logan/Veronica in my opinion, and needs to be here basically. I didn't write the fic as related to this, but it could be taken as that, I suppose. The fic is fairly crazy, and has slight ptsd. As always, if you bother reading even though it seems I'm never going to stop writing, I thank you muchly. I also seem to keep changing my journal style. Alongside my icons, which number at Veronica Mars: 29, Other Fandoms: 11 atm. What. even.


they don't make morning after pills for this
veronica mars | veronica; veronica/logan, wallace, cassidy, mac | hard r |
post season 2 | warning: mentions of rape, sex, language. | > 3800

"Do you feel clean?" he asks. It's a strange question. | The summer of forgetting.

The summer is hot, sticky, and her clothes cling to her, glued in an uncomfortable film of sweat and dust. She feels dirty, tired, used, almost all the time.

And she thinks: this is good.


"You could let me love you sometimes, you know, Veronica" Logan says sardonically, hands in his pockets, leaning against the wall. He is bare-chested and most of the time she wants him so much, the panic makes the pulse at the base of her throat pound like her heart has permanently taken residence there. The Tell-Tale Heart. It was a horror story, she remembers.

"We just had sex," she points out, sitting on the edge of his bed, as she ties her hair back with a clip, the sweat making the strands stick to the back of her neck, trickling into the back of her shirt, "we haven't stepped out of your room in hours."

He pushes himself off the wall, and walks slowly towards her, measured, deliberate, his gaze serious, and suddenly she finds she can't meet his eyes, "Please," his voice is quiet, almost heartbreakingly gentle; it breaks the heart at the base of her throat, cutting off her air supply, and for a moment she can't breathe, "let me love you."

"I'm trying." she says to the floor, the colors of the carpet threads blend into each other. She doesn't have names for more than half of them.


Mac's way of not dealing involves hours and hours in front of the computer creating complex codes, till her eyes are bloodshot and Veronica thinks she may have discovered the cure for cancer and written the entire works of Shakespeare thrice over.

"You could stop," she says.

"I could," Mac replies agreeably. But she doesn't. So that is another answer.

Together, they make a website with a running list where people can rate their sexual conquests, and then send it to all the college-bound former seniors of Neptune High. Or rather, Mac makes the list and Veronica keeps up a witty monologue as it is made, which is just as important, she thinks. The catch is that when the names are filled in, the list is automatically forwarded to everyone rated. It feels cathartic to be able to single-handedly break up most of their graduating class. Lesson Number One of the Real World. Sorry, you're screwed, folks.

She gets rated about seven times from guys she's never even heard of, and two she knows only by name. It's a high rating from three, a medium from two, and a low rating from four and it makes her feel irrationally annoyed. There can't be people who think she sucks at fake-sex. There can't be people who've fantasied about her in the kind of way where she's been terrible at sex in their fantasies. That's insane. She morbidly waits for a notification from Logan's account, but it never comes.

When he finally checks his email, she's sitting by him, her hand in a bowl of popcorn. She looks up at his exclamation.

"What the fuck?"

Her heart drops as she looks at the never-ending column of unread messages from their website; it seems to scroll on and on and

"It's a thing," she says, casually, even though she's not, she's totally not, "you know. Rating sexual partners and stuff. Bored, rich Neptune, high school teen things. You're pretty popular then, huh?"

He runs his fingers through his hair, "so let me guess, this was you and Old MacDonald."

"No," she says, quickly, but he's crossing his arms and it's kind of pointless, "I mean, yes. But, whatever."

He lets out a short laugh, the kind where he's not amused, "you must be really bored then, Veronica, I'm guessing."

"It was just something to do," she mutters.

She looks back at his screen, voice small, which sucks, this is not how she wants to play this, "so, have you slept with all of these girls?"

He's still staring at her, and she thinks she should be able to look up, she's not the one in the wrong here. He's not either, she supposes, but that's never mattered before. "no." He does not elaborate.

"I have to go," she's said it before she's thought it out, but as she says it, she knows it's true. She gets up from the couch. The fact is, she's been spending too much time here. With him. Neglecting all the piling cases. That needs to change back to what it used to be. It's kind of terrifying she hadn't realized it had changed at all.

"Wait," he pulls her down, without much effort, and she falls ungracefully, sinking in the depths of the pleather, "did you make this so you'd have an excuse to break up with me?"

This is so far off the left field, it knocks the wind out of her, "what?"

"Did you," he begins again, abruptly, his voice is hard, she registers with surprise, arms gripping the sides of the couch tightly, the same side of the couch she'd gripped when she'd been-- he's angry, "make this because you're bored and I haven't done anything lately that would warrant a break-up so you decided to create a reason instead? Because this would fall into some sub-category of entrapment, Veronica Mars, PI Extraordinaire. I've spent enough time with you to know that."

"That isn't how entrapment is defined," she says automatically, before the anger flares up inside her as well, because what the hell? "and you arrogant bastard, this had nothing to do with you. Did it ever occur to you that it was just something to do. To help Mac deal, because the guy she'd almost been in love with jumped off the fucking roof of the building she was going to have her first time with him in and left her naked on the bedroom floor?"

And suddenly it hits her, "do you want to break up? Is this some sort of reverse psychology technique where you get to be the good guy and also be free of the girl keeping you from the exponential growth of that list?" she points to his screen.

"What," he looks at her like she's singing showtunes in the nude, "no."

"Because," she says, and he started this, he totally started this, "if that's what this is, then just say it. Okay. Just say it."

Logan deflates suddenly, she can almost see the anger drain out, leaving behind something close to exhaustion in its wake. He reaches out a hand to rub tiredly against his jaw. He hasn't shaved today, and he's starting to get a stubble. She remembers how it feels against her skin. The fact that they're fighting, and she's still mostly thinking of getting him to take his clothes off, makes her flush with anger and embarrassment, "you know I don't."

"I have to go," she says, again, "I just-- have to."

He opens his mouth to say something before closing it again, "will you be back?" his voice is distant, but she can hear the layer underneath, the desperate need to know. He's always waiting for her to leave, she realizes, with a marked lack of surprise. Leave and not come back. Like her mother.

She thinks of saying something cheesy like always, but she's stood far too many times in front of motel windows and watched forever crumble into nothing, "yes."


She goes to the funeral even though no one asks her to.

The coffin is plain black. Not ebony. Some kind of painted wood. She can't see him; not just because she's standing right at the back, but because it's closed. But she remembers the sound he'd made as he hit. The car, the ground, she can't remember exactly. Maybe there is nothing left to see. Just parts of him that don't add up to a whole. An arm, his torso, his penis, dried blood.

Dick is sitting in front, staring blankly at a point behind the preacher's head in the distance. She looks too, but she can't see anything. Logan is beside him, dark, beautiful. Logan has attended far too many funerals, she knows. The thought makes her chest ache.

Dick's bleach-blond hair is much too long, falling over his eyes, and he'll have to spend the rest of the summer at the beach, if he wants his tan back, she decides. He's pale. Like a ghost. Like he'd jumped too that night, with Beaver, and come back transparent.

She looks down at her hand, she can see a criss-cross of blue and green beneath her skin. And when she pinches her arm, red blossoms in the spot, battling for dominance with the fast-approaching purple. Tomorrow it will be yellow. She is not a ghost.

"His name was Cassidy," she whispers to the tall man in a suit next to her, who looks down at her once, his face, contorted in a parody of fake grief, giving way to mild curiosity, then looks away. She wonders who the man is, if he knew Beav--Cassidy at all. If he ever cheated on his wife in the Camelot with his young secretary. Whether his wife will ever come to her and ask her for the money-shot, all the while secretly hoping that there won't be any. There always are. It's the gospel truth in the business.

"Here's my card," she whispers again, handing it to him. Maybe his wife will cheat on him with her secretary instead. He looks at the card, and then at her like she's something disgusting, trying to market herself at a funeral. He doesn't know that she'd have shot the guy herself, given half the chance. Maybe he would have made a better corpse then, just a bullet hole somewhere in his body, and the quiet tragedy of his boyish face. It wouldn't have been so messy. Maybe then they wouldn't have to keep the coffin closed.

When they start to lower the box to the ground, she walks away, Dick Senior wasn't there, she registers dimly. He's still running. She wonders if Bea
Cassidy had managed to kill her on top of the roof of the Neptune Grand, if her mother would've come for the funeral.

Maybe not, she decides.


"Do you think he came inside me?"

"Hmm," Logan is concentrating on his video game with the same fierce intensity that he does on her. She watches him blow something up on the screen. He had once taken a gun out of her hands. She thinks she can contribute to those research studies on whether video game culture is making the youth of today more violent. She has never played a violent video game. She has held a gun with intent to kill, though.

"Be--Cassidy," she tries again, "do you think he came inside me?"

Logan's hands still, and she is oddly disappointed. She likes his hands moving. On screen, his avatar crashes. The screen is filled with a digitized red. That is not blood. She has bled enough to know the difference. She'd found dried blood on the inside of her thighs that night. Virgins bleed. When Duncan found her, she must have already bled out her innocence. By the time Logan found her, she probably had nothing left to give. He doesn't seem to understand that.

He turns to look at her, eyes carefully shuttered, "Veronica."

She wonders if Cassidy is still inside her somewhere. Coating her organs in the white of his seed. If she is the only living person in the world to still carry a bit of him inside herself. Or whether her body throws pieces of him out with the blood each month. Rejects him, where she hadn't been given a chance to. She wonders if her body is all she'll ever really be.

"Can you come inside me?" she asks. Suddenly, this is important. "I'm on the pill. It's for hormonal imbalance or something, but, yeah, I'm on it. I mean, guys love that no-condom thing, right?" his silence makes her nervous for some reason, "Like, it enhances the experience? That's what all the magazines say." she ends, lamely.

He's looking at her neutrally, as if assessing her, "no."

She nods. She'd expected this. "Okay," she says. She vaguely realizes she's not sitting anymore and it's only when she's stepped over her bra and she's sliding her cotton panties down her legs that she knows what she's doing. He's still looking at her from his place on the couch, holding himself unnaturally stiff. As if he can't figure out if this is a fight. It's not, she wants to tell him, they're not fighting.

She sit on the couch beside him, and spreads her legs. That would be at least three circles more on the list Mac had made once, she thinks. When he turns around, his gaze firmly on her face, she feels naked. She is naked, she knows, but this moment she feels it.

"Could you," she tries to think of a way to phrase it. Not crudely. She's embarrassed at the idea of talking dirty in front of Logan. He's so good at it. Cunt and clit and cock and sofuckingwetjesus. The words he says without blinking, while she can barely think them in her head without turning red, "Could you get him out" she manages, "of me."

She watches him swipe his tongue across soft, dry, chapped lips. When his eyes fall to the shadow between her thighs, she can feel her muscles clench. He understands what she's asking for. She'd known he would.

For a moment she thinks he's going to refuse. Perhaps pick up the controller and turn back to the screen and she's going to be left here, open and completely stripped, and then even when she's wearing clothes she's going to be naked always, exposed always, vulnerable always.

Then he sighs, tiredly. But he drops to his knees anyway, between her open legs, his head pushing forward, and she grips the arms, possibly ruining the expensive, plush material with her fingernails. For once he does not fill the long silence with run-on sentences and dirty words, even though she would like for him to, so her moans don't sound quite so loud, so obscene in the huge room. She's echoing.

She doesn't say his name when she comes. She doesn't want it repeated back to her.

Logan raises his head to look at her, his mouth still shiny, wet with her. Inexplicably, she's mortified by the physical evidence of what she'd asked him to do so openly, without shame.
But when she picks up a napkin from the side-table to wipe herself off him, he pulls his head back, so she can't reach. She tries to remember if he has ever asked her if she loves him. She can't remember, so he can't have. She thinks she'd remember something like that.

"Do you feel clean?" he asks. It's a strange question.

She thinks about it for a moment, orgasmic lethargy setting in her bones till she wants to melt and be refrozen again into something real. Logan also has B— Cassidy inside him now, "I don't know." she replies, honestly.

He nods, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. "okay." he says.

"Okay," she echoes. The room is silent this time.


She's afraid of many things. Spiders. Her dad dying. Letting Logan love her. Becoming her mother. The guy she sees on the streets sometimes who grins lasciviously at her with yellowed teeth and a rotting tongue. Never being able to let Logan love her. Being average in the Criminology class she's taken up at Hearst. Failing her PI exam. Getting a zit right where it's most visible.

"It's a truth universally acknowledged that nothing up to any good needs eight legs, Vee." Wallace consoles her, it is an admission on his behalf, and she is grateful, "it's only right, being afraid of spiders."

Vee, she thinks, Vee for Weevil.

"Did you just make a Jane Austen reference, Wallace?" she asks, instead, absently. The magazine is smooth under her fingers.

She looks up to see him looking sheepish, ball in hand, "Bridget Jones's Diary, actually." he says, "Jackie made me watch it once. Both of them. In succession."

His expression is tortured, and she knows it has more to do with the J word than Colin Firth and Hugh Grant fighting by the roadside, as much as he tries to pretend otherwise. So she changes the subject.

"But then, like, what about centipedes," she flips another page of Alicia's Cosmo, sprawled across his bed, with her shirt hitching up just a little bit. She should pull it down, but she feels far too lazy to bother. How To Know He's Just Not That Into You. Flip. Be The You You Didn't Know You Could Be. Flip. 10 Ways to Drive Him Wild In Bed. It's three pages long. Maybe she'll cut that out. She could ask Wallace for scissors, but then he'll look at the page and grimace in that way that he has whenever he is inadvertently reminded that she and Logan fuck.

They fuck, she turns the word around in her mind, while Cosmo tells her in glossy black-and-white that lovemaking is best when He is allowed free reign over His desires and She does not shy away from acknowledging Hers she likes the word, she decides. Fuck. A figure of disappointment. Fuck. An insult. Fuck. An exclamation. Fuck. An unnecessary word to fill in spaces. Fuck. Have sex. Fuck. The word he uses most when he's about to come, his gaze fever-bright, hand gripping her hair too tightly, mouth slanted over hers, holding her in his thrall, her name attached like fuckveronicathisisjust veronicayouresofucking ineverwanttostopfuckingyouveronica.

Cassidy did the same thing to her that Logan does, but the word is different. The only similarity is the -ed if she uses 'raped' and 'fucked'. But if she uses the source words, they don't share a single letter. She likes language.

"Too much of a good thing," Wallace tells her sagely. He is talking about the centipede.

She thinks of the time she'd flashed him to increase his 'naughty' quotient and probably filled in a point for herself on the list. She idly wonders how many circles she'd have to darken in now, with everything Logan's done to her in the long evenings in his hotel room, with everything she's done to him. Probably twenty seven more. The thought makes her feel vaguely dirty.

"But how much is too much?" she wonders out loud. The man pictured in the magazine is sculpted, beautifully naked, but he doesn't arouse her as much as the mere sight of Logan's bare arms does. She's turning into a slut. Sometimes when he lifts something heavy and the muscles is his arms contract, she nearly creams herself from just that. She hopes to god he doesn't know. She can imagine his smirk, wide and cocky. Her hand itches to slap it off already.

Wallace is dribbling his basketball around the bed, although Veronica knows for a fact his mom told him not to, because it will disturb the neighbors. Alicia only wants to fit in. She can sympathize with that. "Why don't you take up Philosophy 101 as an extra credit course and find out?" he replies.


She has this dream. It's a sort-of memory in dream-logic. Sometimes Cassidy jumps. Sometimes she shoots him. Sometimes Logan jumps. Sometimes she jumps.

Sometime she has sex with Logan on the roof while Cassidy lies splattered across the pavement.

Sometimes she kisses Beaver and he smiles, half-shy, half-pleased, forever in the shadow of his big brother and she says I know the feeling and thinks of Lilly. She hasn't thought of Lilly in very long and it feels a little like betrayal to think of her in this way after so long. But she and Beaver sit in companionable silence, and she forgets again.

Sometimes there is no one on the roof but her, and she sits alone on the edge and watches the stars glow brightly, brighter and brighter and brighter till one of them falls, somewhere far away and she gets up to go home.

The actual-waking-world work is more tiring than she remembers. She doesn't understand how she used to scale the walls and take pictures, sitting for hours in uncomfortable positions. It makes her cramp up now, her stomach churning, head aching with the heat. It's too hot.

She wants to be in Logan's room at the Grand, ordering room service. She's getting spoiled. Too used to the good life. Too used to his arm wrapped around her and the perfectly maintained temperature of his bedroom. Wallace grins and tells her, you're only human, Veronica Mars. Mac grins too, but she doesn't say anything. She has no third friend to go to for an opinion.

She is not fast enough somehow either, and when someone she's been tailing catches her and grips her hard enough to rattle her teeth, she is more resigned than afraid. He slaps her and it stings. She falls down into the mud, the summer rain making it difficult to get a grip, her jeans splattered with brown. Her bag falls down beside her and when the man comes after her with strong hands, she is ready, taser in hand. He yells and falls back and she tasers him again just for the heck of it, before she uses the momentum, the adrenalin rush, and the time, to make a break for it.

She calls Lamb on the way, gives in information in shorthand, and thinks of turning home, but doesn't. And thinks that maybe she wasn't going to from the beginning.

She's shivering when Logan opens the door. He stares at her blankly for a moment, and then she watches him instead, as his gaze moves away from her eyes, examining her body; fear, anger, dread, panic, alarm flitting across his face. He reaches out a hand to touch her and then pulls it back, as if he knows he can't touch her without hurting somehow. She wants to tell him it's okay, she doesn't mind.

She can feel her head pounding where she'd been hit by the man's closed fist. The cold seeps into her skin, mingling with the residue of the summer heat and settling at the base of her spine somewhere. She can see the red crusting over on her arms under the trails of mud, her hair hanging in dirty strands around her face, and she knows her face is discolored too. Tomorrow she will be yellow and purple all over. She is not transparent. She is not a ghost. She was raped by a boy long dead. Logan sometimes turns her on just by lifting heavy things. She didn't jump. She didn't pull the trigger.

And she says: "you can love me if you want."

semi-titled: veronica mars is unconvincedpocochina on April 7th, 2013 01:43 am (UTC)
no but yes but this is such perfect Veronica in all her proud, brittle glory. <3
youcallitwinter: all you touch and all you see.youcallitwinter on April 7th, 2013 07:22 am (UTC)
I'm SO GLAD you think so? Because I think the events of 2X22 should've been v. traumatic, and I really want more of Veronica from then!
upupa_epops: [misc] that's how I like my relationshipupupa_epops on April 7th, 2013 07:27 am (UTC)
WHOA, Zoe. I mean, WHOA.

This is unnerving, and wonderful. Apparently you're so fucking skilled you can write a rape-related trauma fic, give it sort of a happy ending, and make it all work. I really love your Veronica, multilayered and all over the place. Also: Logan Echolls, you drama queen. You had to say "Let me love you"?

Please, forever remain your perfect self.
youcallitwinter: you who never arrived.youcallitwinter on April 7th, 2013 07:47 am (UTC)

But also, thank you. I mean it. Because I wanted to write post 2x22 trauma!fic, but I genuinely didn't want to mess it up. All over the place is exactly what I was going for. And Logan standing in the background and worshiping her is obv my poison haha.

ugh, if you promise to never change <3
upupa_epops: [misc] that's how I like my relationshipupupa_epops on April 7th, 2013 07:58 am (UTC)
Now I want a rewriting from Logan's POV for pure indulgence XD. I mean, Veronica is the only focalizer you could've had here, but now that it exists, Logan's melodrama would be insanely interesting from the technical point of view. ALL THE THINGS that could be done with the style. ALL OF THEM.

*terrible person*
youcallitwinter: the lonesome all understandyoucallitwinter on April 7th, 2013 08:14 am (UTC)
YOU CANNOT EVEN BE REAL. Oh my god, I have 4000 words of post S3 Logan!fic and now you've made me want to write this too. YOU ARE NOT HELPING HERE.

(And you're completely right, of course, the Logan fic in this context could only be written after the Veronica fic. And I want to write in this style and WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?)
upupa_epops: [misc] that's how I like my relationshipupupa_epops on April 7th, 2013 08:20 am (UTC)

It would be glorious. Logan trying to explain Veronica's mental state as a story, being confronted with reality, failing, coming up with another story... He makes up stories all the time, but he ditches them the second they start ringing false.
youcallitwinter: our winding roadsyoucallitwinter on April 7th, 2013 08:28 am (UTC)
Hahaha, wow, that is actually ridiculously well thought out, maybe you should write that fic instead. Um. /subtle. But seriously though, Logan trying to love Veronica through this period makes me all akjdasjkfwea. And Logan's storytelling and theatricality!
nicalysenicalyse on April 7th, 2013 05:20 pm (UTC)
This is so ridiculously hurtful and perfect that I don't actually have proper words to express it. You've captured both of them perfectly here, and ugh, the bit about Mac is basically everything.

Well done.
youcallitwinter: the ones that come easy.youcallitwinter on April 7th, 2013 07:27 pm (UTC)
I really wanted to explore this period and really didn't want to mess it up, because I just find the idea of Veronica trying to move on from everything that's happened and Logan trying to love her so intriguing. AND MAC D: Thank you so much!
archangel_blood: heartbeatsarchangel_blood on April 8th, 2013 01:01 am (UTC)
Good God, this is glorious. It’s sad, and beautiful, and dark, and heartbreaking, and now I hurt in places I didn’t even know existed.

And she says: "you can love me if you want."

Let me bawl my head off now.
youcallitwinter: to better counter-act his charm attackyoucallitwinter on April 8th, 2013 07:06 am (UTC)
You are totally making me feel good about my homicidal fic writing for these two. But honestly, I'm so glad this worked for you, because I wanted to deal with 2x22, but it's such a dark place to be. Thank you so much!
Jmarchsky on April 9th, 2013 12:06 am (UTC)
Ouch, this HURT me (but in a good way). I love having insight into how Veronica deals with all the trauma she's been through. I'm not a fic writer myself so thank you for helping me get into her head! You're very talented and now I'm gonna go read all your other ones! ;)
youcallitwinter: our winding roadsyoucallitwinter on April 9th, 2013 10:15 am (UTC)
That icon is gorgeous, I'm totally going and stalking the icon-maker after replying here! I really am glad to hear that this fic is working in the way I wanted it to, because honestly, taking up a heavy-duty theme and then messing it up would have sucked. Thanks so much, I appreciate the time you took out to comment :)
treblebethtreblebeth on April 22nd, 2013 09:47 pm (UTC)
I really do adore the way you write her, and them. You totally nail the dynamic in their relationship that I wish we saw more of in the show. and this He's pale. Like a ghost. Like he'd jumped too that night, with Beaver, and come back transparent. is so haunting and evocative.
youcallitwinter: an everlasting smileyoucallitwinter on April 23rd, 2013 11:03 am (UTC)
I definitely wish we could see more of this time period; I love the idea of Veronica being all over the place and Logan trying to keep her together with his hands and dry sarcasm. This is actually my personal favorite from all I've written for them (or possibly in general) so I'm always happiest when someone else likes it too!
Soul of the Rosesouloftherose on April 23rd, 2013 09:50 am (UTC)
Wow wow wow. This was *compelling* I was sucked into the narrative & couldn't look away. I could easily read an entire book of this. You've captured them both perfectly & the complexity of their feelings, needs & desires. Really beautiful work. I'll be looking for more from you.
youcallitwinter: what I gave is yours to keep.youcallitwinter on April 23rd, 2013 11:12 am (UTC)
This is pretty much my first ~established relationship fic, possibly ever, because I usually avoid them like the plague. But something about these two makes me want to explore the relationship dynamic while actually in a relationship. This is actually the the fic that I personally like the most out of the others, so I appreciate your lovely comment even more!

(I'll be looking for more from you. No worries there, I have like three more in the offing already. *headdesk*)
The Proverbial Bull in a China Shop...: Veronica winkssabaceanbabe on May 1st, 2013 05:46 pm (UTC)
This is a beautiful piece of razor-edged stained glass, the colors like a Veronica-shaped bruise.

Or, in English, I love it. Thank you for sharing. :)
youcallitwinter: till the end of the worldyoucallitwinter on May 1st, 2013 07:58 pm (UTC)
That line may actually be more impressive than this fic, haha.

Thank you, I just saw VM and am obsessed with it so anyone still reading fic makes me happy, since it's been so long!
jesterlady: VMVeronicaruhrohjesterlady on May 7th, 2013 05:39 am (UTC)
Oh my goodness. Such angsty brokenness but so beautiful. That's the good part about fic, is you can go the darker places they can't on the screen. Brava!
youcallitwinter: then you come crashing in.youcallitwinter on May 7th, 2013 07:52 am (UTC)
That's absolutely true; this show explored a hell lot of dark themes, but it obviously had to stop at a point, so fic leaves a lot of chance for in-depth psychological exploration of child abuse or rape etc., and that is fantastic. Thank you :)